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Here I am again. Deadlines as usual. Procrastination as usual. Yup.
I wonder how people get the motivation to do things or to not give up. You would think that since I've watched all that anime about never giving up would help me do things, but really it hasn't. I'll recite the lines from the shows in a semi-cool way, but I can never do things.
I know I am lazy. To not be lazy is to do work. But to do work, I would need motivation. To obtain motivation I need more self-confidence. To receive self-confidence, I would have to not be lazy and go do things. But I have no motivation. What the fuck. Am I just supposed to trudge through everything and just grit my teeth?
Is that motivation? That sounds painful and I don't like pain. I don't like doing things that involve pain, but that's me being lazy again.
I can sit around wishing I had more self-confidence to do things so I can get better, but I have no self-confidence to start with. How do I start.
Maybe I should start off first by liking myself. Yeah, that's it. I have to like myself first. Liking myself will bring self-confidence and the rest will follow.
I'll work out or something and become stronger because I am physically weak (all skin and bones). I will feel better about my body and just continue taking my acne medication so it disappears faster. I would also need to get more sleep, so I won't be stressed out to get more acne. I'll become healthy and more awake these days. I'll try to fix my monotone voice, so I sound interesting to myself and hopefully to others. Once I get enough sleep and become healthier in general, I'll clean my room and organize it. I'll then post up reminders to practice drawing, working out, and going to sleep early. I'll create a schedule. I'll try to see my friends every once in a while and try not to put people off. I'll talk to old friends and see how they're doing. I'll play video games with them every once in a while so I can also get better at video games in general. After I get better at everything I want to do, I'll watch some anime and cartoons to broaden my animation view. I'll know what I want to do in the future for college. My dad will be proud.
Whoah. I just figured out how to help myself. I need to post reminders and papers of things to do. It all starts with reminders. I need reminders. If I have real people remind me, then I'll get annoyed with them.
Oh that's another thing. I have to be more patient with people and things. I can't get irritated at people for the slightest things.
I can fix myself.
I can obtain self-confidence.
I need stickies and reminders everywhere.
I HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO MAKE THOSE REMINDERS.
I suddenly obtained motivation.
Is it spontaneous to just obtain motivation? The will to do things? I think... I understand now. Just by actually typing it out, here on Livejournal. MONDO COOL.
I wonder how people get the motivation to do things or to not give up. You would think that since I've watched all that anime about never giving up would help me do things, but really it hasn't. I'll recite the lines from the shows in a semi-cool way, but I can never do things.
I know I am lazy. To not be lazy is to do work. But to do work, I would need motivation. To obtain motivation I need more self-confidence. To receive self-confidence, I would have to not be lazy and go do things. But I have no motivation. What the fuck. Am I just supposed to trudge through everything and just grit my teeth?
Is that motivation? That sounds painful and I don't like pain. I don't like doing things that involve pain, but that's me being lazy again.
I can sit around wishing I had more self-confidence to do things so I can get better, but I have no self-confidence to start with. How do I start.
Maybe I should start off first by liking myself. Yeah, that's it. I have to like myself first. Liking myself will bring self-confidence and the rest will follow.
I'll work out or something and become stronger because I am physically weak (all skin and bones). I will feel better about my body and just continue taking my acne medication so it disappears faster. I would also need to get more sleep, so I won't be stressed out to get more acne. I'll become healthy and more awake these days. I'll try to fix my monotone voice, so I sound interesting to myself and hopefully to others. Once I get enough sleep and become healthier in general, I'll clean my room and organize it. I'll then post up reminders to practice drawing, working out, and going to sleep early. I'll create a schedule. I'll try to see my friends every once in a while and try not to put people off. I'll talk to old friends and see how they're doing. I'll play video games with them every once in a while so I can also get better at video games in general. After I get better at everything I want to do, I'll watch some anime and cartoons to broaden my animation view. I'll know what I want to do in the future for college. My dad will be proud.
Whoah. I just figured out how to help myself. I need to post reminders and papers of things to do. It all starts with reminders. I need reminders. If I have real people remind me, then I'll get annoyed with them.
Oh that's another thing. I have to be more patient with people and things. I can't get irritated at people for the slightest things.
I can fix myself.
I can obtain self-confidence.
I need stickies and reminders everywhere.
I HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO MAKE THOSE REMINDERS.
I suddenly obtained motivation.
Is it spontaneous to just obtain motivation? The will to do things? I think... I understand now. Just by actually typing it out, here on Livejournal. MONDO COOL.