I wake up today...
With my body cringing on the inside. I never wanted to wake up today, hoping I'd sleep for months on end. Today isn't going to feel good living through I guess...I've already felt like I don't wanna live today lol. God wouldn't put me through such tests unless I could handle them...but im already feeling like freaking out and screaming. This is soo hard for me...I love you Kaylynn...I can't give up on you though. Even near death can I not give up...because I'd rather have that bit of life near death still...I'm going crazy. I love you.