Jan 30, 2004 20:04
Brrr, it's ever so cold in this room, I want to take another bath and maybe read a book instead of playing unreal this time, but I just got out of the bath not too long ago.
Yesturday I went to your house, first time I'd seen you in four day's and I was really happy to see you, however leave it to me to torture myself the whole time with thoughts that are of no importance. Because it's not an issue, you know? I miss you so much though right now, the feeling I have when I'm away from you is like nothing I've ever felt before and the only way I can describe it is simply Owie oogh :(. I don't like it and so I don't like being away from you. Even unreal can't pull my concentration off you, though I'm sure you thought it could.
Yesturday at your house I got unreal and I've been playing it almost non stop since, I shall rule you all thats right nahhh. Muahahaha.
I would like to thank you for being the best most wonderful boyfriend ever. You're uber understanding and loving beyond any means I thought possible for this little used ragdoll. I'll forever always be thinking of way's to make you happy, new way's and little thing's I can do to bring that smile to your face. I love your smile so much. I wish your cam was working so I could at least see you when I'm away. I really do need to move closer.
My sister keeps pressing this deal on me, but I'm afraid that it will only cause me to see you less and that is not the goal here, not at all, no amount of money she offers me will convince me if it results in my seeing you less than I do now. No phones, or perks either. She tried to use psychology on me to get me to make up my mind faster serving up the idea in a question that maybe I wasn't ready to move out. She's hoping I'll act on defensive impluse and jump on the offer now and rush out into this, thinking to prove myself. However unlike some I don't always act rash and this isn't something to be rash about. The most important factor in this whole thing is you, m'love. I love you so much.
I suppose I should get back to my practicing. I'd rather move it to my room where it's warmer, which is a surprise but you said you'd try and get online at phil's house and so here I shall wait for you.