incoharent morning babble
I’m actually typing this update while I sit in the bath tub. I like how technology can follow me here, but all at the same time I can shut the door and escape from it. Much like a bathroom is a safe place to hide from things, to just sit and reflect while relaxing in the bath or shower. That is of course till your mother comes in and crashes that feeling of isolated bliss. But you’ve learn to ignore that.
So about 20 minutes ago maybe I got off the phone with you, it was 2 am and dinner was ready, because in this house this is the time of dining, and you, you were tired, and ready to retire your completed thoughts to dreams that you most likely wont remember in the morning. However in the morning will bring new opportunities for us to see each other and share with each other the others presence. We have such a wonderful day planned out I hope that we can carry it out.
The last day we saw each other however was a beautiful day, together on that road isolated by the snow and the night. I’ll always remember that, the first time we made love, even if the memory seems more of a recalled dream. I’ll remember how your skin felt to mine and how wonderful your breathing was, the feeling of your closeness and the look in your eye’s. The time we were as close as possible, when we looked into each others eyes. The look I found there, it was nothing but pure emotion, pure loving emotions. I can still feel your hands on my back where they rested gently, how they moved from my hips and up to my neck and ears. I can close my eyes and feel your breath on my neck, the slight moisture of our skin and the pressure of the kisses.
These thoughts, this memory of that closeness is what accompanies me in my sleep. The cause for my tossing and turning, when I wake up and let my arms move over the bed, searching for your body, and realizing you’re not there, and you won’t be there for awhile. Then trying to get myself to go back to sleep.
I love you so much. Tonight, before you went to bed we had one of those conversations that while we talk I have to stop and pull in my breath because you seem to be a master at taking it from me with your words and your actions alike. You amaze me in an innocent way, an effortless way really I love how thing’s come so natural with us, nothing really need’s to be thought out it all falls into place.
All these little thing’s I didn’t know how to tell you yet, to bring up into conversation, or I had thought of, or thought would be incorporated into my perfect relationship you seem to bring up and hit. You nail all of them right on and it’s just wonderful because every day there is another thing to you that I like and makes me want to stay just the more. Then there are thing’s I never really thought of that you bring up and I agree completely.
I love how we agree to try our best to make this work and I believe that we can. I believe that we work so well for each other, compliment the other to the right degree that it won’t be very hard for us at all to keep thing’s going for what a time measurement would be referred to as forever. I would love to spend forever with you, my loving panda.
So about 20 minutes ago maybe I got off the phone with you, it was 2 am and dinner was ready, because in this house this is the time of dining, and you, you were tired, and ready to retire your completed thoughts to dreams that you most likely wont remember in the morning. However in the morning will bring new opportunities for us to see each other and share with each other the others presence. We have such a wonderful day planned out I hope that we can carry it out.
The last day we saw each other however was a beautiful day, together on that road isolated by the snow and the night. I’ll always remember that, the first time we made love, even if the memory seems more of a recalled dream. I’ll remember how your skin felt to mine and how wonderful your breathing was, the feeling of your closeness and the look in your eye’s. The time we were as close as possible, when we looked into each others eyes. The look I found there, it was nothing but pure emotion, pure loving emotions. I can still feel your hands on my back where they rested gently, how they moved from my hips and up to my neck and ears. I can close my eyes and feel your breath on my neck, the slight moisture of our skin and the pressure of the kisses.
These thoughts, this memory of that closeness is what accompanies me in my sleep. The cause for my tossing and turning, when I wake up and let my arms move over the bed, searching for your body, and realizing you’re not there, and you won’t be there for awhile. Then trying to get myself to go back to sleep.
I love you so much. Tonight, before you went to bed we had one of those conversations that while we talk I have to stop and pull in my breath because you seem to be a master at taking it from me with your words and your actions alike. You amaze me in an innocent way, an effortless way really I love how thing’s come so natural with us, nothing really need’s to be thought out it all falls into place.
All these little thing’s I didn’t know how to tell you yet, to bring up into conversation, or I had thought of, or thought would be incorporated into my perfect relationship you seem to bring up and hit. You nail all of them right on and it’s just wonderful because every day there is another thing to you that I like and makes me want to stay just the more. Then there are thing’s I never really thought of that you bring up and I agree completely.
I love how we agree to try our best to make this work and I believe that we can. I believe that we work so well for each other, compliment the other to the right degree that it won’t be very hard for us at all to keep thing’s going for what a time measurement would be referred to as forever. I would love to spend forever with you, my loving panda.