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i'm done with wasting my time and energy and love. there's no point in looking back and dwelling on things that won't matter tomorrow. so i find myself much happier. the world and the people in it are shitty, not excluding myself. i try not to be numb the way the world tries to make you be. i still want to feel and see as much as i can. i mean really see. everything i can in things and people, not just what i've been conditioned to be cautious of. i want to be able to see the good too. its so fucking hard sometimes. and yet sometimes its so easy and so right-in-my-face that i often overlook it. too busy trying to fix something that can't be fixed, or trying to make something be what it will never be.
but the good would be nothing without the bad.
i'm not going to close myself up the way any natural creature would after time and time again of disappointment, let down and hanging around.
i refuse to let my life be consumed by anger and regret and i refuse to be disenchanted. my life will only be what i want it to be if i know that it can. positivity projects and creates positivity. i can't ignore reality, but i can create a better one for myself.
man, i think i may be too much of a realist (or maybe pessimist?) to believe what i just wrote. no, i really do believe it. i must.
but the good would be nothing without the bad.
i'm not going to close myself up the way any natural creature would after time and time again of disappointment, let down and hanging around.
i refuse to let my life be consumed by anger and regret and i refuse to be disenchanted. my life will only be what i want it to be if i know that it can. positivity projects and creates positivity. i can't ignore reality, but i can create a better one for myself.
man, i think i may be too much of a realist (or maybe pessimist?) to believe what i just wrote. no, i really do believe it. i must.