I think i know how you feel...
anonymous
August 17 2005, 00:40:02 UTC
Hi Sweety. Tonight, you had a very tough night, and for the first time in a while you didnt want to talk to me or anyone in general. I dont take it personally, so dont feel bad. :) It did, however, force me to look at you again through the eyes i should always look at you through, and every time i look away and look back it is like breathing a breath of fresh air...naw, salty. :) I have never felt so empty. When my father left to come to the United States to try and give a better life to my brother and I, I kind of lost the one person that I felt I could trust everything with. Over time, i got used to the feeling, and just stopped opening up....and then your ass came along and I opened up again. And now every time I get on a plane to leave you i feel empty. Completely empty. The main reason im going to get good grades during Richland is because of you. I know that if I can get decent grades, im not going to have a problem getting into a Florida college. Every night since you have started school, I stayed up and didnt know what else to do but wait for a call. There were a couple of times where I was so exhausted that I fell asleep about 20 minutes before you called, but for the most part I just sat there and waited for the damn clock to move. I sit and watch a movie with my friends and can never enjoy it anymore, because it doesnt feel right not having you there beside me. I drive home from everywhere feeling like complete crap, and the reason is because I know that when I get done driving I dont get to see you. I have never felt this god damn lonely. Ever. I want to wake up and see you there, in fact there are times when I wake up that I legitimately think that you are going to walk into my room and lay beside me...and it is such a great feeling. And then the grogginess goes, and I feel empty again. All my friends have their girls to go to and to make out with or sleep with to make them feel better about their shitty lives, and I get a tiny webcam. Not exactly fair, but life sucks. I feel like shit when I am not around you, and that pain lifts a little when I get to talk to you, and a little more when I get to see you on webcam. But it turns out that I do have something over my sex happy friends. I feel amazing when I am with you. I am so overwhelmed with happiness when I get to be with you, it is a little scary. Every time you have said that I have seemed timid, I wasnt. Terrified is more like it. you were to good to lose, even then. Out of all the guys that you have been with, you said that I am the most well...manly. You feel that a boy changes into a man when he knows what he wants and goes for it. Well, I have you. You are the only reason I ahve left to fight. I miss you so much right now that it hurts, literally hurts, to have to think about being this far from you and from the thing that makes me the happiest A lot of people said that we would not last one year. Hell, you said yourself that you doubted that we would last a month, and I had some reserves myself. Yet here we are, one year, one month, and two days later. As you said, one minute together is worth months apart, and I believe it as strongly as you do. No one said this was going to be easy, but you have to take a chance if you want to get lucky. I know I feel pretty low at the moment, but I know in one years time when I am there beside you, this feeling will be long gone. You are worth everything to me, and I know we have not gotten a lot of time lately to talk, but know that you are still the only thing that I have left to fight for. You are my best friend, lover, and confidant. But most importantly, you are my sweety. MY girl, no one elses. and while the butt may take abuse, that is mine too :) I love you sweety, and that will never change, no matter what. I miss you right now so much it hurts, but the pain is something you learn to deal with, and pain is only temporary. Love lasts forever, no matter what distance there is between us Im going to go and sit in my room and do what I always do, wait for your call. Until then Sweety, I hope you sleep peacefully tonight, and that your day goes well. Love always and forever (whether I like it or not) :) Daniel A.K.A. be`ene
Tonight, you had a very tough night, and for the first time in a while you didnt want to talk to me or anyone in general. I dont take it personally, so dont feel bad. :) It did, however, force me to look at you again through the eyes i should always look at you through, and every time i look away and look back it is like breathing a breath of fresh air...naw, salty. :)
I have never felt so empty. When my father left to come to the United States to try and give a better life to my brother and I, I kind of lost the one person that I felt I could trust everything with. Over time, i got used to the feeling, and just stopped opening up....and then your ass came along and I opened up again. And now every time I get on a plane to leave you i feel empty. Completely empty. The main reason im going to get good grades during Richland is because of you. I know that if I can get decent grades, im not going to have a problem getting into a Florida college. Every night since you have started school, I stayed up and didnt know what else to do but wait for a call. There were a couple of times where I was so exhausted that I fell asleep about 20 minutes before you called, but for the most part I just sat there and waited for the damn clock to move. I sit and watch a movie with my friends and can never enjoy it anymore, because it doesnt feel right not having you there beside me. I drive home from everywhere feeling like complete crap, and the reason is because I know that when I get done driving I dont get to see you. I have never felt this god damn lonely. Ever. I want to wake up and see you there, in fact there are times when I wake up that I legitimately think that you are going to walk into my room and lay beside me...and it is such a great feeling. And then the grogginess goes, and I feel empty again. All my friends have their girls to go to and to make out with or sleep with to make them feel better about their shitty lives, and I get a tiny webcam. Not exactly fair, but life sucks. I feel like shit when I am not around you, and that pain lifts a little when I get to talk to you, and a little more when I get to see you on webcam. But it turns out that I do have something over my sex happy friends.
I feel amazing when I am with you. I am so overwhelmed with happiness when I get to be with you, it is a little scary. Every time you have said that I have seemed timid, I wasnt. Terrified is more like it. you were to good to lose, even then. Out of all the guys that you have been with, you said that I am the most well...manly. You feel that a boy changes into a man when he knows what he wants and goes for it. Well, I have you. You are the only reason I ahve left to fight. I miss you so much right now that it hurts, literally hurts, to have to think about being this far from you and from the thing that makes me the happiest
A lot of people said that we would not last one year. Hell, you said yourself that you doubted that we would last a month, and I had some reserves myself. Yet here we are, one year, one month, and two days later. As you said, one minute together is worth months apart, and I believe it as strongly as you do. No one said this was going to be easy, but you have to take a chance if you want to get lucky. I know I feel pretty low at the moment, but I know in one years time when I am there beside you, this feeling will be long gone. You are worth everything to me, and I know we have not gotten a lot of time lately to talk, but know that you are still the only thing that I have left to fight for. You are my best friend, lover, and confidant. But most importantly, you are my sweety. MY girl, no one elses. and while the butt may take abuse, that is mine too :)
I love you sweety, and that will never change, no matter what. I miss you right now so much it hurts, but the pain is something you learn to deal with, and pain is only temporary. Love lasts forever, no matter what distance there is between us
Im going to go and sit in my room and do what I always do, wait for your call. Until then Sweety, I hope you sleep peacefully tonight, and that your day goes well.
Love always and forever (whether I like it or not) :)
Daniel
A.K.A. be`ene
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