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I miss this kid. I miss how he made 4th and 7th period so much fun. I'll never forget the days when Delwon and Johnathan Stevens would get in trouble by Mrs. Brown. I'll never forget the time in science when I saw quincy's third nipple. These kids really made an impact on me, because no matter what was going on they'd always have smiles on their faces and always cracked jokes that were actually funny. I will never forget the day I saw Delwons hair cut short because I kept telling him it made him look skinny. Haha. Anyways, this week was not a good thing. I've wasted my time eating and being horribly lazy. I've decided I no longer want to wear makeup, even though I'm still going to.. I'm just going to wear very light shades of it, for a more natural look I suppose. I'm tired of showing the world myself covered in fake-up.
I really would like a boy, as many times as I will say this, nothing will happen. I would just like a decent boy, who can drive and take me places and cheer me up when I'm stressed about certain things. If ANY of you kids know any decent boys, please let me know.. Although I'm sure none would be interested in me, but what have I got to lose? honestly nothing. I don't even care about looks anymore.. I'd rather kill myself than base a relationship on lust. Lust is such a horrible yet powerful thing, but I no longer fall for it.
Only a few more months until I will be shipped off to Wales; the love of my life. I can't explain how excited I am to get to see my family and finally be where I belong. And I thank whoever called me this morning at 7. My luck, I put the most obnoxious, loudest ring as my ringtone and I wake up almost having a heart attack. Saturday, is the day i've been waiting for.. My yardsale. I'm going to be selling my guitar finally, I do hope someone buys it. I really need the money right now, I could get a job but I'd honestly rather not. I don't feel like worrying about that and my life, it's too much right now. Maybe when I get myself a car, I will think about getting a job. I'm thinking of either buying an ipod or a new camera, i'm leaning towards the camera though. I can't really stand ipods.
oh and ps, last night i watched ladder 49 for the first time. Agh, it's such a beautiful movie. If you haven't seen it, I really think you should.