don't leave me now, we've come too far just to set our eyes on a new star....
Have you ever been honestly split in half?
I mean like half of you wants one thing and the other is pushing for the exact opposite.
I hate the feeling.
What I hate more is that I can't control it.
Then all these other feelings get involved because my heart is going in two different directions.
It's ripping apart.
I'm trying not to be so down all the time.
I hate it.
I feel like all I ever do is whine and cry and although my friends have told me countless times thats ok.
I still don't feel right about it .
That makes it not ok.
I just want everything to come to an end.
I wish it was possible to press stop and put in a new life.
I don't want to erase the past.
My mistakes have made me who I am today and I think thats a pretty ok person.
I just want to start a new life.
I want to say from now on nothing in my past is going to haunt me.
I don't think I'll ever be able to do that though
Sigh.. I should go lay down.
My dad will be home soon and when he gets here I should be in bed.
I'm just lucky my friends can make anything fun.
Even baking a cake or doing physics.
I love My Shannon and My Alex :)
|ps| MyWife is amazing and I love her.