Dec 26, 2004 19:20
i am at casey's house. cuz i suck at life/collages and listenign tot he white stripes like all good kids should be.
i got a new fridge for xmas and i put it in my room already and its nice. sssiiiggghhh
i need to get out of my housemore than i can say. being in it just reminds me of being in high scholol and how absolutly depressed i was in high school. like really, if you consider high schooll to be some of the best years of your life, you need to fuckin live a little more. i am so much happier in college now than i was in hs. oh god i hated high school. everything about being home just brings it all back to me. just those throbbing feelings of inadequacy and shit like that. im hearing things about people in high school, and just hearing baout their lives makes all of those feelings come back...it fills me a portion of gayshame...i mean, a lot of gayshame thanks for making me hate myself...and you. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GROW UP FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need to get out of my house...i dont know how i will be able to live at my house all summer long...i think that i NEED to get a job at pl just so i can get out of that
i need to get over this by 1. eating until i feel better and 2. call knate
knate helps me feel more validated about my sexuality
DAViD