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[meant4him923]

today was boring. Dad woke me up at like 12...called to talk to Matt, no one answered. called Mrs Wendi, she said they were @ home doing chores so try John Michael's cell. Did that, argued w/JM about how Mrs. Wendi told me to call..then got Matt on. Asked him what was up with him having 2 girlfriends, and he was like "I dont have 2 girlfriends...I gotta do chores, I'll call ya later." He didnt. lol. So I called his house again @ 2:30...and his mom said he went to Kona with Leo...talked to her for a minute about the rumors and she promptly told me he wasn't allowed to have a girlfriend right now at all because he treats them so badly. Then I told her that he was going out with Courtney...ya so I probably ruined him..but oh well. Then I went to my games. We won the first one 13-3 I think. I pitched the whole game until the last inning, and had pretty good hits too. The second game, I played 1st, shortstop and pitched 2 innings. I struck out once and popped out once and got on base 3 times I think. We won 14-3 I think. When I got back to my dad's, I came into my room and got online. Then asked sum CK people if they knew if that kid Leo had a screen name, and I think he didn't.lol. Right as my dad left to go get me sum food, Matt called from Leo's. We started talking about this whole "2 girlfriend" thingy...and he kept saying he doesnt have 2 girlfriends...but him and this girl from San Juan Del Rio (I think her name was Rachel) like each other and he doesn't know what to do. Then he had to go eat dinner and said he wud call me later..and I said like around 11 or 11:30 bc I was gonna watch a movie with my dad. He then called around 10:15 and asked me why I told Courtney that he (Matt) was using her (Courtney)..which I didn't, by the way. I told him I didn't and I hadn't talked to Courtney since Tuesday, and I guess he believed me, and said he'd call me back later and hung up. He hasn't yet, but it really doesn't matter to me anymore. So, I went and ate dinner with my dad and watched most of "Cheaper By The Dozen"..and then when my dad started to fall asleep, I played one of my ring tones so it sounded like someone called me and came in here to get online and write this B-E-A-utiful entry. When Matt asked me what he should do about his girl problems, he had to go eat dinner with Leo, so I couldn't talk to him about it. My advice that I decided to give him, if he ever calls back, is that he should take like a week or 2 off from girls, dump whoever he's going out with, lol thats pathetic, and spend all that time thinking of what he really wants. Like don't call any of them, don't spend time with them and think of who he has like the "best time" with or whatever. And if he STILL can't decide, then have a date with each girl that he likes, and see who he has a better time with. I'm not trying to say I'd give the best date, because frankly I dont think he deserves a girl right now. I don't wanna be hurt anymore, I don't wanna see my friends (Courtney & Taylor get hurt and I really don't think this Rachel character deserves what I've gone through and what Taylor has gone through. (Courtney knows nothing! She doesn't believe he treats girls bad or that me and him make out lol.). Alright, I'm out. I'll write more later probably...definitly if he calls! lol. xoxo-emily
<33 matthew
ps: paul is such a dork! lol but i love him! hes so awesome...paul: i love u! i can tell u anything! u rock the sox!! thanks!! xoxo