i remember

[meant4him923]

i remember going to see "cheaper by the dozen" with matt in january i think it was. we told my mom we were going to see "peter pan", because before we left for west virginia, i went to the "cheaper.." with sum st patricks friends of mine and she has this rule about seeing movies twice or w/e! lol i rele wanted to see peter pan..but matt wanted to see cheaper by the dozen so i went again to let him do what he wanted bc it always seemed like i was the one who decided what we wanted to do and that made me feel awful! i talked to matt about that once and he swore i wasnt like that but wutever. he also swore he wud never hurt me..hmm. lol. anyways...when the previews began he lifted up my armrest, and put his arms around me and just held me for like 30 minutes! we sat there and talked about how we wanted to see this movie and how that movie was gonna be stupid and laffed at the previews for the funny movies. then a preview for harry potter & the prisoner of azkaban came on and he tried to cover my eyes bc he knew i was gonna drool all over draco malfoy!! that mae me feel good..it was cute! but he let me see the small glimpse of draco..and then kissed my cheek and whispered "im hotter right?" lol (wow im crying)...then the movie began and he laffed bc i smiled when they talked about how much the parents were in love. anyways, throught the movie him & i kept talking about how we wanted to run away from every1 and go and get married and have 12 kids! lol but then he told me 12 was too many, so we had finally decided 6 was the maximum, but only if we cud afford to send them ALL to st patricks and bishop kenny. and he said that 3 or 4 was the minimum bc he loved having 3 siblings. then we started to talk about his family and he told me that if wut happened to his mom ever happened to me he wud not treat me like "his dad treats his mom" as i quote. i tried to tell him it wasnt that bad and his dad loved his mom very much but he kept saying how if his dad loved his mom then why did he move out for a week? i didnt know wut to say so i just listened. then he looked at me in silence and laffed bc of the movie and i laffed back bc i thot he was laffing at me. the rest of the movie we talked, watched and kissed. i'll never forget when we were about to walk down the stairs, when the movie was over, he pulled my arm and held me rele close and was like "6 kids?" lol and i said "yeah..." he was like "thats alot..." and i just said "well hey, ure guarenteed sex 6 times!" lol and he got this cute lil smirk on his face! and we laffed it off and then we had to go. i think that was the day i cudnt go home with him and had to wait 3 hrs to see him. his dad wudnt take me to church but that was ok. he was so adorable arguing with his dad on the fone saying "Dad please..i wanna spend more time with her..". When his dad got there and my dad got there (at the same mite i add!), he gave me a hug that lasted about 2 minutes, said hed see me @ church, kissed my head, looked in my eyes and said "I Love you so much, emily."..kissed me and said bye and got in the car and then i got in mine and we drove off. we both stopped @ the stoplight next to each other and just like looked @ each other w/o drawing attention to our dads lol. that nite i think he came over for dinner after church or i went with him. i think that was the nite we went to angelos and i almost ruined santa claus for kayla! i felt soo horrible..and then matt made fun of me bc i had never been to angelos and had those wine shooter thingys at the end of the meal and i didnt know wut to do with it. lol he told me i had to chug it and turn the glass over. so i did, spilled most of it and broke the glass. it was bad. lol. :) but it was good times. in the back of his van that nite had held me and kissed my head so much and we were talking about how awesome it was gonna be wen we go to palm coast! ya..those were the best times.
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i bet courtney or taylor wont ever be able to remember all of that. and i want that matthew back. even if i dont go out with him..i want him to have that personality back. im out...crying way to much. xoxo-em
<3 i love him..always have, always will <3