first post.

[meant4better]

so anyway i was inspired by monicas writings and decided to start this shit. i normally dont like to put my writings out there, but decided i should keep something. so if you have the url, your special.

in my head theres so much thinking
cant ever get a break
is it real, can i feel,
should i give or should i take?
theres no one to turn to,
no one who will understand
no one to run to,
to lead me out and take my hand.

im invisible.

how does anyone not know, that each day i fall?
no words to say, or prayers to pray, nothing matters at all.
how can you just see right through?
and not even try? can you hear what im saying?
can you look me in the eye?

can anyone listen.
to the words, the words that im not saying.

can anyone see the game,
see the game that i am playing.

can you really look at me, can you really see my heart?
can you see me slip, hear my screams, can you feel me fall apart?
living life without a purpose, avoiding reality and how it will turn
all filled up with fire, feeling it burn and burn

run away from what hurts

dont know how to deal .
dont know what is an illusion.
dont know what is real.

its all gone away and i dont even care..
emptyness for me,, is the only thing i can share.