i remember

[meant2love]

when i first met him
for some reason, i knew he was nervous
but he hid it well. he was joking, yet polite and playful.
i was scared and didn't want him to break my heart
because i knew from the minute i met him that he wasn't just any guy.
he had a mindset that i already had feelings for someone else,
and told me to talk to the other boy i had liked before i met him
but i didn't want to, because i knew he'd get the impression
that i didn't like him. and that's not what i wanted to happen.
i told myself that i couldn't fall for him, but after being around him for a while i'd developed feelings for him that i couldn't put aside.
and i remember envisioning us being together as a couple,
but i told myself to snap out of it.
he has this style that makes him so desireable and irrisistable.
the voice that i could listen to forever
and the eyes that i could stare into for hours.
i wish i could pause time and stay right there
because honestly, my life would not need anything else.
lately i've been talking to him, and it's like it used to be
before he had a girlfriend. it's hard to explain.
he makes me feel like i'm beautiful and i get this incredible high.
it's like i'm so close to being where i started from
when the feelings between us were new.
it makes me believe and i need something to believe in.
something deep inside me is telling me this is for a reason.