More Between Us, Chapter 4/? "Moments of Weakness"

[means2bhuman]

Title: More Between Us Than A Wall part 4/?
Characters: Peter Petrelli and Sylar/Gabriel Gray (Matt and Nathan if you squint?)
Rating: PG-13/T to eventual NC-17/M
Warnings: Language, mind fuckery (no pun intended), violence, angst (?), dirty language/thoughts/actions but nothing explicit.
Setting: Inside the Wall, S4.
Words: 7, 510
Summary: Peter has

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[means2bhuman]

Heh heh heh...I totally forgot I wrote that. Smooth, huh? That's actually something for me to think about. It never occurred to me that perhaps that was Sylar's dream job. Virginia would have shot down that option (and the classes, eventually).

Sylar likes fantasy because its his reality. From all the trauma, just from canon alone, a normal, unmedicated person without a confidant, partner, lover, relative or therapist would crack and go insane. Like, truly insane with a list of medical, personality, behavioral problems. His coping method is...ignoring it and hearing what he wants to hear. I think he got a lot of himself from his "parents" Martin and Virginia (Sylar being Martin - violent and course and loud, the appeal of the forbidden, the power. Gabriel being Virginia - seemingly mild but vicious, almost a drone but riddled with issues, insecure and needy as hell, paranoid and obvious, yet undermining and second-guessing). Going on that, he's imitating Virginia when he's just tuning out the crap in his life - he lacks the tools to face his problems so he lets them slide. He kind of has to.

I was glad, as an RP partner and co-author, that Peter wasn't guilty. I don't think he should be when it comes to Nathan. GB's interesting in that she doesn't write him as resentful as I would - Peter's very understanding that "This guy didn't ask for my brother's memories; it is not his fault about that." It breeds resentment in Sylar which is just great tension.

"Room for growth", yes, the thing I have to constantly remind myself. They have 5 years so I have to start Sylar off in a crappy spot!

Enjoy, enjoy!

[game_byrd]

I should, at some point soonish, go over what exactly Peter is pissed about, because that's real clear in my head. The memories isn't it, even if Sylar possessing them irritates the hell out of Peter. It irritates him, but he doesn't see having them as being Sylar's fault - if that makes any sense. Reminding Peter that Sylar has them - *that* is Sylar's fault.

Peter has some guilt about his choices surrounding Nathan's death, but that's not something he's going to air with Sylar (of all people! Ha, no).

That's fascinating about the Sylar/Gabriel division replicating the patterns of his parents. That's great! I'll have to cogitate on that one quite a bit!

[means2bhuman]

I don't know, personally, that it need be fleshed out; that part about what irritates Peter about Sylar having the memories. Their his (Peter's) dear, murdered brother's memories - enough said. Just that Sy *has* them may be the crux of it. I'd be pissed for a lot of non-reasons about that situation if I were Peter.

Guilt about Nathan: Ha. Sylar thinks he's blameless. Something else I took from SS; "Well, you never *asked* me what I was doing at Stanton". Its...kind of Nathan provoking a snake and expecting it not to bite after you've been chasing it through the dessert. Not gonna happen. Nathan just finished reconciling after the whole Building 26/government/Danko op which hunted Sylar who's not happy about that, thinks the guy needs punishment. Nathan drove himself to his own funeral and dragged Peter along. As Sylar sees it. Then Nathan, yeah, took the bullet for one-trick-wonder Peter at the time, which was very brave - he did die a soldier's death and Sylar probably wouldn't begrudge him that. I can totally see Peter having guilt. Hell, Nathan has serious, serious guilt. From Sy's POV...he was kind of, sort of the victim there, backed into a corner (he gave Claire back unmolested, brain intact), he reacted.

Like that about the parents? Its something I've been thinking about this week and I got an opening to share it! Yay! Love when that happens, don't you? I think it explains his "schizo-ness" or what we see as DID. I think he had to play one parent against the other, which, I can tell you, is crazy hard to do, pun intended. The dangers of the "soft, good" parent and the "hard, bad" parent, in a manner of speaking, as neither of his parents were ideal parent material or persons in general. I just cringe to think of Gabriel home with both his parents in the same room - its like asking a young child to pick which parent he/she wants to live with during a divorce but never actually going anywhere and the abuse is ongoing. Horrible. No wonder the guy's "moods" or personalities shift like a ping-pong ball at a windy professional tournament. That's kind of accurate, actually - shifting with the wind, follow the money, follow the blood trail, go where the power is.