my drama blah blah blah
so i dont know what to do...my very bestest friend in the whole entire world goes to a different school then i do and we get to see each other on weekends and the week days that we hang out...but lately its seems like we are too busy for each other she is always with her wonderful boyfriend and im always with my other good friend b/c i have no one else to hang out with..but then she thinks i dont want to hang out with her b/c of that and that isnt the case at all...i love her to death but there are certain reasons why i dont hang out with her that much since ive become friends with this other person..and they arent bad ones either...
then my other problem is that i cant say no to anyone..and when i do i feel horrible about it..i dont want to let people down..i hate doing that..it sucks so bad but i guess i just want everyone to be happy but not me..i guess i figure if everyone is happy then its ok for me not to be but surely i will be happy in the end..i dunno..we will find out wont we...
another problem is that i let my gruad down just for one minute and im back in square one..wanting a guy who i have no idea if he wants me..he says things and does things that make me think he does but then i end up saying something and he'll get mad and wont call me..why would you let 2 of your friends call and ask how you guys were doing and then get all pisssed when they want to talk to you about it?? then call back and say oo i didnt know they called and blah blah blah...
whatever...this is gay but i need help...advice anyone??