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I figure it's impossible to satisfy anyone, even those closest to me; I can only satisfy myself. Although. Maybe I should spend the first few years out of school buying my parents someplace nice to live or something. It wouldn't be out of guilt or pity, but out of recognition, and respect.
I'm just so tired of the misery. I know I can't make it go away, but I know, on the other hand, IF I had chosen a different route, I would have made things better for them.
It's hard to turn away- yes my considerations come first, but what I choose cannot be unaffected by their needs.
It's miserable how good people get stuck someplace and deserve better. On one hand I know much of it is their fault, but when I take my father as an example, someone who has done everything from start to finish, and has always abided by every rule given to him- well. Such clear cut, precise people deserve better, despite their flaws, however problematic.
I'm just so tired of the misery. I know I can't make it go away, but I know, on the other hand, IF I had chosen a different route, I would have made things better for them.
It's hard to turn away- yes my considerations come first, but what I choose cannot be unaffected by their needs.
It's miserable how good people get stuck someplace and deserve better. On one hand I know much of it is their fault, but when I take my father as an example, someone who has done everything from start to finish, and has always abided by every rule given to him- well. Such clear cut, precise people deserve better, despite their flaws, however problematic.