i think i nearly die because of this.
(this changmin userpic is somehow so fitting. i deserve to be mocked, seriously)
this is actually a major writer's block.
since the last semester i haven't got rid this disease and i think i'm at the stage of dying already. i think you can see the difference of the products out before september and after that month last year. you can see that a certain romance was made on june, wedding dress on july and unknown number on august. but after september i kept making fics that i myself didn't feel satisfied with. i even hate a thousand miles, a thousand years, to be very honest.
for the record, i have yet to finish love me twice (if you see the date, this teaser was out on august. see the point? and exo's comeback is drawing near alr), these 4 abandoned fics, a new year present (fuck you v this is february alr for fuck's sake), two unfinished drabble/oneshot/whatever, baektao's part of a thousand years, and... and i can't even understand myself.
i even have prepared a big saga about exo, but somehow this disease killed my imagination and i decided to bury that plot with my own hands, deep in my laptop file.
and i haven't made any dbsk fic since i knew exo. fuck my life, i think i lost my feelings alr since the final statement about jyj vs. sme, or maybe even far before. for now i only know changmin and he will forever be my version of most ethereal/otherworldly perfection.
at this state i just want to lay back and relax because i might be tired, and i just want to read other authors' works, but it seems like they are gone as well. aff is so quiet, even after i subscribed over 140 stories, no kidding. i don't just stick with krisyeol or krisbaek or baektao or xiuhan or sekai or sudo, i even read kairis baeklay krischen or kaiyeol and even the genres i used to avoid like a plague. i don't care anymore, i just want to read. but i think a lot of authors are suffering as well. there are quite numbers of authors taking a hiatus.
i think a lot of people are suffering just like me, but that doesn't make me any less disappointed to myself.
and i think i disappoint you guys, too. i'm sorry. i will get myself together soon.
this is actually a major writer's block.
since the last semester i haven't got rid this disease and i think i'm at the stage of dying already. i think you can see the difference of the products out before september and after that month last year. you can see that a certain romance was made on june, wedding dress on july and unknown number on august. but after september i kept making fics that i myself didn't feel satisfied with. i even hate a thousand miles, a thousand years, to be very honest.
for the record, i have yet to finish love me twice (if you see the date, this teaser was out on august. see the point? and exo's comeback is drawing near alr), these 4 abandoned fics, a new year present (fuck you v this is february alr for fuck's sake), two unfinished drabble/oneshot/whatever, baektao's part of a thousand years, and... and i can't even understand myself.
i even have prepared a big saga about exo, but somehow this disease killed my imagination and i decided to bury that plot with my own hands, deep in my laptop file.
and i haven't made any dbsk fic since i knew exo. fuck my life, i think i lost my feelings alr since the final statement about jyj vs. sme, or maybe even far before. for now i only know changmin and he will forever be my version of most ethereal/otherworldly perfection.
at this state i just want to lay back and relax because i might be tired, and i just want to read other authors' works, but it seems like they are gone as well. aff is so quiet, even after i subscribed over 140 stories, no kidding. i don't just stick with krisyeol or krisbaek or baektao or xiuhan or sekai or sudo, i even read kairis baeklay krischen or kaiyeol and even the genres i used to avoid like a plague. i don't care anymore, i just want to read. but i think a lot of authors are suffering as well. there are quite numbers of authors taking a hiatus.
i think a lot of people are suffering just like me, but that doesn't make me any less disappointed to myself.
and i think i disappoint you guys, too. i'm sorry. i will get myself together soon.