Twenty-Seven.
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Supposedly, writing this stuff makes you feel better about it. Whatever. I just need a break from studying. I've read through every text book I was assigned at college while I've been here. I just don't know where to go from here, and if I clean the whole house again, Yuki will start asking questions.
Everyone's getting sick again. When people are frail and you can only do so much to help them... I'm reminded of that time. Even if it all worked out okay, it scares the shit out of me. I don't have anything else to give if it comes to that again. What if I need to save him and I can't because of what I gave up? Worse than that, I can't get Mom's face out of my mind. She got sick so suddenly, too.
I never thought I'd miss it so much, but this house seems so big and empty without the Monster charging around the house. And I'd give anything to here Dad clicking away on his computer late into the night. Of course, I enjoy all the privacy with Yuki, but I'd give anything just to sit down to breakfast with them again.
Another thing, while I'm thinking of it, because it's been bugging the hell out of me:
If I'm part of a manga character in someone else's world, that just means I was a background character, doesn't it? I'm not good-looking or heroic enough to be a main character. That's kinda depressing.
It's Sakura. She's the hero. She's brave.
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Y'know. One of the main characters in Murakami's Kafka on the Shore lost his shadow. And the main character of Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World teams up with his shadow to attempt to escape the Town he's trapped in. I can't help but think that Murakami got his thoughts on shadows totally wrong. Been on my mind lately.
On that note, any good book recommendations?
Supposedly, writing this stuff makes you feel better about it. Whatever. I just need a break from studying. I've read through every text book I was assigned at college while I've been here. I just don't know where to go from here, and if I clean the whole house again, Yuki will start asking questions.
Everyone's getting sick again. When people are frail and you can only do so much to help them... I'm reminded of that time. Even if it all worked out okay, it scares the shit out of me. I don't have anything else to give if it comes to that again. What if I need to save him and I can't because of what I gave up? Worse than that, I can't get Mom's face out of my mind. She got sick so suddenly, too.
I never thought I'd miss it so much, but this house seems so big and empty without the Monster charging around the house. And I'd give anything to here Dad clicking away on his computer late into the night. Of course, I enjoy all the privacy with Yuki, but I'd give anything just to sit down to breakfast with them again.
Another thing, while I'm thinking of it, because it's been bugging the hell out of me:
If I'm part of a manga character in someone else's world, that just means I was a background character, doesn't it? I'm not good-looking or heroic enough to be a main character. That's kinda depressing.
It's Sakura. She's the hero. She's brave.
/private
Y'know. One of the main characters in Murakami's Kafka on the Shore lost his shadow. And the main character of Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World teams up with his shadow to attempt to escape the Town he's trapped in. I can't help but think that Murakami got his thoughts on shadows totally wrong. Been on my mind lately.
On that note, any good book recommendations?