move and shake, just like that.
some resolutions:
*give rationality a chance
*let myself be happy
*4.0 gpa
*be pretty
*excercise
*love better
*achieve and maintain thinness
*makeout every moment possible
yesterday i spent hours playing halo and i actually liked it. halo war on wednesday and it's effing on. it's so difficult for me to want to go to school every day. i find no pleasure in forcing myself into an institution for 50% of my day that i don't even want to be in.
i want to lose myself in his body
thank you, typewriter
"what makes you really sad? anything, anything."
the thought of being alone for the rest of my life.
i want someone who understands, you know?
i want
i want
i want a life of moderation. writing for a little music magazine,
something, whatever. publishing my own stuff on the side.
i want to live and work and love and is this too much to ask for?
the doctor nodded. "i couldn't bear to cap your creativity."
i've thought this through. i couldn't stand to lose it.
don't worry, sir. my fingers are crossed and i'm wishing on satellites.
"so i will put you on something that should allow you to continue writing."
deep awkward sigh.
"okay but you understand the side affects."
my tea just went cold and there are so many things running around in my head. there are 20 different sides to me and none of them feel just right. but when it becomes a whole and i become who i am i feel perfect. or, almost. and each of the 20 wants to love something different.
kimi & stacy
sara being douchey.
ty being douchey.
kimi with effing hotties.
guess who.
she took this herself, i promise.
my favorite girls ever.
... and chase.
tyler.
juniorrrrrrr.
sorry paris, but that's hot.
jess jess.
booby.
me and... ?
Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But looking at her now you'd never tell
Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's praying
Kneeling at the edge of her bed
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water
She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
The unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she crys
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water
She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water