this is very out of character
so yeah like the headline says. i came to a conclusion today. i dont remeber when it was. it might have been during english class cause thats the most boring 3 hours of my life. but yeah i also decided i should write this in my livejournal so people know it and can hold me to it. i quit things way to easily. is what i decided. no matter what it is ever in my life once my god-given talent reaches its end and i have to actually work at something to be good i just give up or stop trying and i shouldnt do that. there are like 30 things in my life i was decent at but once i actually had to work at it i quit or at least stopped caring so much about it. skateboarding,baseball, and track come to mind at the time but there are many others. and im just gonna stop stopping cause yeah. i was doubting if i wanted to still go to sva but what the hell i was like the happiest guy ever when i got in there and nothing has changed i still wanna make films its just hard. but yeah i dont wanna be one of those guys whos like yeah i like films i went to film school but i dropped out cause i couldnt afford it or some other lame ass excuse. no more lame ass excuses for loosing anything in my life jobs,school,hobbies anything i quit way to easily and im gonna stop quiting yeah. or at least make an effort the 19th year of my life which starts in about 26 hours will be an experiment in trying when the going gets tough. yeah