whats new with me?
i don't know why i really only update this when i'm cranky or philsophizing or whatever...probably because i like feedback on my thoughts and right now there isn't anyone here who knows me well enough to give me the kind of feedback people from home can give. but here's the present thoughts: i gots me a significant-ish other. which i didn't mean to do, what with the whole dan thing and all...since technically we are still together. 15 days, hes out, i can end it then, or wait til thanksgiving. doesn't really matter, i have to rip his heart out sometime, and its not going to be fun for anyone, but less fun for him cause he'll be broken and i'll be the bitch who cheated on him. but i can feel myself getting wicked attached, and i think sometimes i'm going to be the one with my heart broken. hasn't happened since rob, maybe it'll be good for me, to let someone in far enough to hurt me again. but i don't know, it doesn't matter right now, i'll bask in the "i'm in a brand new couple" bliss.
then there's french. which i think i might be failing. not a good thing. i tlaked to my TA today and i think things seem a bit brighter now then they did earlier today, so thats good. but i still feel wicked frustrated. i hate feeling like i'm working so hard and i'm just not getting anywhere. hopefully that'll get better too.
i haven't been hungry in a coupla days...just a vague nauseous feeling. anyone remember what the time frame was last year when i got sick? when did i stop eating? i'm forcing myself to eat right now, hopefully that'll keep me ok for awhile. i don't know how to destring myself out. this weekend promises to be amazing, although ann maggie and amanda won't tell me whats going on cause they suck. there's a game in syarnack or however you spell it, and then something's going on but i don't know what cause no one will tell me. i do know there's food and alcohol involved so it can't be that bad. and i was told it was going to be wicked fun. oh wells. anyways, i should go shower now, as i did get out of practice over an hour ago and still haven't showered....thank god for rugby though, i really do think its the only thing keeping me quazi sane.
then there's french. which i think i might be failing. not a good thing. i tlaked to my TA today and i think things seem a bit brighter now then they did earlier today, so thats good. but i still feel wicked frustrated. i hate feeling like i'm working so hard and i'm just not getting anywhere. hopefully that'll get better too.
i haven't been hungry in a coupla days...just a vague nauseous feeling. anyone remember what the time frame was last year when i got sick? when did i stop eating? i'm forcing myself to eat right now, hopefully that'll keep me ok for awhile. i don't know how to destring myself out. this weekend promises to be amazing, although ann maggie and amanda won't tell me whats going on cause they suck. there's a game in syarnack or however you spell it, and then something's going on but i don't know what cause no one will tell me. i do know there's food and alcohol involved so it can't be that bad. and i was told it was going to be wicked fun. oh wells. anyways, i should go shower now, as i did get out of practice over an hour ago and still haven't showered....thank god for rugby though, i really do think its the only thing keeping me quazi sane.