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Two weeks ago I embraced my mono with open arms, thinking about how humorous it is and that it wouldn't be that bad. But now, I am truly experiencing a life completely different than the life I've lead for the past 21 years. I've had to say no to hanging out, I barely leave the house, I sleep a lot, I watch wayyy to much damn tv, and i just relax. It's an odd feeling waking up in the morning and going straight from your bed to the morning news. But I think it's something I need to experience. I want more than anything to be able to go out for a hike with amy, or to tube down the Boulder Creek, or go for a bike ride, go swimming, float in a lake, ANYTHING. And now, with only two weeks left in Colorado, I am hoping, praying that I get better. I NEED to get better.
I need to have the feeling of summer again.
I need to go out and live.
All I can do is go day to day, but I can't help but feel like i am slowly dying inside. I am not meant for this type of life. I thought that this would be the closest I'll ever get to my jeanie wish because all I can do is sit around, so I can learn and read all the books I've wanted to. But I can only last 10 minutes in front of a book before I fall asleep. And I feel so bad for Amy, Tiffani, and Angela because every time they call I feel like my boring little self is letting them down. And they've been amazing, thank you guys. Everytime you call it cheers me up. I am really counting on being boring a couple more days and I hope that I feel 90% better by friday.
The name of the virus doesn't lie...mono. It depresses me so.
check that out seth, i bet carrie bradshaw would have made that little joke too.
I need to have the feeling of summer again.
I need to go out and live.
All I can do is go day to day, but I can't help but feel like i am slowly dying inside. I am not meant for this type of life. I thought that this would be the closest I'll ever get to my jeanie wish because all I can do is sit around, so I can learn and read all the books I've wanted to. But I can only last 10 minutes in front of a book before I fall asleep. And I feel so bad for Amy, Tiffani, and Angela because every time they call I feel like my boring little self is letting them down. And they've been amazing, thank you guys. Everytime you call it cheers me up. I am really counting on being boring a couple more days and I hope that I feel 90% better by friday.
The name of the virus doesn't lie...mono. It depresses me so.
check that out seth, i bet carrie bradshaw would have made that little joke too.