hello again...
WELL! it certainly has been a while. christmas just came and left. i love christmas but i feel kind of sad when it is all said and done with. it was good tho, i got a whole bunch of clothes and money.
so lately i have been watching a lot of movies, alone. it makes me kinda of depressed actually. i really like be alone sometimes. i like time to myself and doing my own thing. i tell everyone all the time that i like being single but i don't know. sometimes it is just fun to go to parties and let things happen. and then there are the times were u feel lonely. it is the worst feeling. you can't do anything at all about it. are you just going to go out and find someone and make them love you? i don't think so. everyone says just let things happen and be patient. its hard. it isn't like you want to fall madly in love or anything but u just want that someone to be next to you. when you are sad u can talk to them. you can hug and kiss them as you like. and most importantly, u can cuddle with them when u watch the movies. thats what really gets me. for some reason every time i watch a movie, that loneliness just comes over me. i want to be able to change it but i don't really know how. i think it is just inevitable to avoid the feeling. who knows~maybe it is just my time for the loneliness.
i need sleep
so lately i have been watching a lot of movies, alone. it makes me kinda of depressed actually. i really like be alone sometimes. i like time to myself and doing my own thing. i tell everyone all the time that i like being single but i don't know. sometimes it is just fun to go to parties and let things happen. and then there are the times were u feel lonely. it is the worst feeling. you can't do anything at all about it. are you just going to go out and find someone and make them love you? i don't think so. everyone says just let things happen and be patient. its hard. it isn't like you want to fall madly in love or anything but u just want that someone to be next to you. when you are sad u can talk to them. you can hug and kiss them as you like. and most importantly, u can cuddle with them when u watch the movies. thats what really gets me. for some reason every time i watch a movie, that loneliness just comes over me. i want to be able to change it but i don't really know how. i think it is just inevitable to avoid the feeling. who knows~maybe it is just my time for the loneliness.
i need sleep