(Megan)
hi i just thought you should know that that is me now officially out my flat, all my shit is in my room and i'll be staying at my parents for the time being until i figure out where to move to, that is chris and i officially over and there is now no going back. i dunno how i feel, one minute i'm feeling pretty happy then i just feel shit and i know what ive done is the right thing but it just feels weird, which i guess it will for the time being. im probably going to be pretty crap for the next few months, cos i feel guilty when im in a good mood and then i feel guilty when im in a bad mood. i think chris hates me, but i know its the right thing and i know for both our benefits ive done what is best. last night we had our last night together but i wouldnt call it memorable. i had a bit of a rant, he went in a grump, i thanked him for the last three years and how ill never forget them, he grunted a bit and so i turned over and went in a grump, then i got up for work this morning and when i returned he wasnt in, my dad helped me with the last of my stuff and here i am now, back where i started. my room being pretty much the exact same as how i left it so having to start to take everything off the walls and revamp the place a little, a lot really. but i csnt really face doing it. i cant really face anything, as long as i have somewhere to go like work it seems ok its when i have to start facing what ive done that i freak out
so just so you know, for those coming back, whenever that is (i presume in the next week or so?), i dunno what i'll be doing, working and drinking and sitting and smoking and that'll be it so please join me when you can, i know it seems dull but its pretty fun i assure you, and we can go for wintery walks etc, i hear the snow is coming back hell yeah! we can go sledging which i didnt get round to when the snow was here before (its pretty much all melted but apparently that was just a taster for whats coming)
ok, this isnt a proper email i just thought i'd keep yall in the know xxxxxx
so just so you know, for those coming back, whenever that is (i presume in the next week or so?), i dunno what i'll be doing, working and drinking and sitting and smoking and that'll be it so please join me when you can, i know it seems dull but its pretty fun i assure you, and we can go for wintery walks etc, i hear the snow is coming back hell yeah! we can go sledging which i didnt get round to when the snow was here before (its pretty much all melted but apparently that was just a taster for whats coming)
ok, this isnt a proper email i just thought i'd keep yall in the know xxxxxx