New colors for fall! Yayyy.
No one will understand what I'm saying, so don't even try....
I wish some people would get their priorities straight. Or maybe they do have them straight and I just don't like the order... I don't know. The person this is directed toward doesn't even read my livejournal so it doesn't matter, but sometimes I wish I could get the message across to them a different way than just telling them straight up. Too bad it won't happen, and I will just keep looking like the bad guy, or rather, bad girl. *Sigh.* And I can't wait till I become a mind-reader. Life will be even easier. I mean I can sort of read people now, but when I grow up to be a mind-reader it'll be the best. Cuz, y'know, I AM going to become one.... But can't some people just say what they mean and mean what they say? And not only mean it, but SHOW it. And not just showing it through big productions, but the little actions. Oh, how I yearn for the truth. And I long for knowledge even more. Common sense can't help me now, and being book smart is even less useful. What I need now is a way of knowing what repercussions my decisions will cause, how other people will react, how others feel now, and above all- what the 'right' thing to do is.
Not right or wrong as in good or bad, like "Do I steal or not steal," because that's obvious. More like, "Should I say this or that? Should I act this way or that way? Should I respond or ignore it?" Honestly, which is right: This or That? <-- Neither, but I like s's better so I choose this. It's kinda like that. But without the letters. Basically, I have a few options, none right nor wrong, but I may like the consequences of one better than the other, but I have no clue as to what the consequences will be.
The worst part is, no one can help. I'm alone on this one and I know it. My indecisiveness is my enemy at the moment. It's sidekick is second-guessing. I think I know what I want or what I should do. I think I have it all figured out. Then again... maybe not. Am I completely over-exaggerating? No. Well, maybe. Yes. No. I don't know! I think I have pretty much decided my future actions though.
It's funny how that always works with me. Say I have two choices. I have absolutely no idea which one to pick. I contemplate every pro, every con, and basically every side. I still have no idea which one I want. But eventually something in the back of my mind is whispering one option over and over. I try to ignore it and stay neutral, still fairly debating. Yet the whispering slowly becomes talking at a moderate volume, which slowly turns into shouting. By then I know that that's the option I'm choosing. Maybe it's my innermost thoughts? Maybe it's my 'heart'? Maybe it's that old cliche 'gut feeling'? I don't know what it is, or why it's there, but I know enough to go with that and hope for the best. Well this entry has been long enough. Just a random fact to wrap it up:
~Random fact: In most advertisements, including newspapers, the time displayed on a clock or watch is 10:10. How strange. Why not 11:11? Hmmm. If anyone comments to this entry, which I highly doubt, then please state your input on this obscure fact, and perhaps give an obscure reason as to why it may be. My reason is because studies have shown that the average human is attracted to the number ten, and this site puts people in a better mood, making them want to go out and spend a ton of money on clocks and watches. This reason is completely fake and probably wrong, but was slightly amusing to create...
I wish some people would get their priorities straight. Or maybe they do have them straight and I just don't like the order... I don't know. The person this is directed toward doesn't even read my livejournal so it doesn't matter, but sometimes I wish I could get the message across to them a different way than just telling them straight up. Too bad it won't happen, and I will just keep looking like the bad guy, or rather, bad girl. *Sigh.* And I can't wait till I become a mind-reader. Life will be even easier. I mean I can sort of read people now, but when I grow up to be a mind-reader it'll be the best. Cuz, y'know, I AM going to become one.... But can't some people just say what they mean and mean what they say? And not only mean it, but SHOW it. And not just showing it through big productions, but the little actions. Oh, how I yearn for the truth. And I long for knowledge even more. Common sense can't help me now, and being book smart is even less useful. What I need now is a way of knowing what repercussions my decisions will cause, how other people will react, how others feel now, and above all- what the 'right' thing to do is.
Not right or wrong as in good or bad, like "Do I steal or not steal," because that's obvious. More like, "Should I say this or that? Should I act this way or that way? Should I respond or ignore it?" Honestly, which is right: This or That? <-- Neither, but I like s's better so I choose this. It's kinda like that. But without the letters. Basically, I have a few options, none right nor wrong, but I may like the consequences of one better than the other, but I have no clue as to what the consequences will be.
The worst part is, no one can help. I'm alone on this one and I know it. My indecisiveness is my enemy at the moment. It's sidekick is second-guessing. I think I know what I want or what I should do. I think I have it all figured out. Then again... maybe not. Am I completely over-exaggerating? No. Well, maybe. Yes. No. I don't know! I think I have pretty much decided my future actions though.
It's funny how that always works with me. Say I have two choices. I have absolutely no idea which one to pick. I contemplate every pro, every con, and basically every side. I still have no idea which one I want. But eventually something in the back of my mind is whispering one option over and over. I try to ignore it and stay neutral, still fairly debating. Yet the whispering slowly becomes talking at a moderate volume, which slowly turns into shouting. By then I know that that's the option I'm choosing. Maybe it's my innermost thoughts? Maybe it's my 'heart'? Maybe it's that old cliche 'gut feeling'? I don't know what it is, or why it's there, but I know enough to go with that and hope for the best. Well this entry has been long enough. Just a random fact to wrap it up:
~Random fact: In most advertisements, including newspapers, the time displayed on a clock or watch is 10:10. How strange. Why not 11:11? Hmmm. If anyone comments to this entry, which I highly doubt, then please state your input on this obscure fact, and perhaps give an obscure reason as to why it may be. My reason is because studies have shown that the average human is attracted to the number ten, and this site puts people in a better mood, making them want to go out and spend a ton of money on clocks and watches. This reason is completely fake and probably wrong, but was slightly amusing to create...