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I'm getting really sick of people judging my relationship.
I was speaking to my mom the other day and she referred to it as a friendship, and I was like, Mom, we're dating. And she was like, yes but you keep saying it isn't going anywhere, and I said yes, but we've been dating for a year. He is my boyfriend for realsies. You can call it that. And she was so awkward about it! Last weekend I had a conversation with my sister as well. Denis had gone to Montreal and Kim asked what he was doing there. I said Montreal things, and he was checking out McGill and Concordia because he's applying to grad school there. And she said something and I said that we aren't likely to do long distance, and she was like, ".....so...you'll move to Montreal?" I was like, no, we'll break up. And after I told her why, like how we want completely different things in life, she kept going on about how she and her husband were like that, and here they are nearly 20 years later. And while I was on the receiving end of this passive aggressive lecture, I just thought, "You only married Trevor because you were pregnant, and your marriage barely scraped through at certain times, why on earth would I want that for myself?"
I know Denis loves me, and he'd be happy with me, he tells me that. But I know I wouldn't be happy with him forever. And I think he'd resent me for denying him things that he wants in life. But why can't we just date now and just be? Why can't we just enjoy this happy time we're having and not have everyone look at our relationship with judgment, scorn and disbelief? It's so frustrating to have to justify it over and over again, when the details and aspects of our relationship is no one's business but ours.
I was speaking to my mom the other day and she referred to it as a friendship, and I was like, Mom, we're dating. And she was like, yes but you keep saying it isn't going anywhere, and I said yes, but we've been dating for a year. He is my boyfriend for realsies. You can call it that. And she was so awkward about it! Last weekend I had a conversation with my sister as well. Denis had gone to Montreal and Kim asked what he was doing there. I said Montreal things, and he was checking out McGill and Concordia because he's applying to grad school there. And she said something and I said that we aren't likely to do long distance, and she was like, ".....so...you'll move to Montreal?" I was like, no, we'll break up. And after I told her why, like how we want completely different things in life, she kept going on about how she and her husband were like that, and here they are nearly 20 years later. And while I was on the receiving end of this passive aggressive lecture, I just thought, "You only married Trevor because you were pregnant, and your marriage barely scraped through at certain times, why on earth would I want that for myself?"
I know Denis loves me, and he'd be happy with me, he tells me that. But I know I wouldn't be happy with him forever. And I think he'd resent me for denying him things that he wants in life. But why can't we just date now and just be? Why can't we just enjoy this happy time we're having and not have everyone look at our relationship with judgment, scorn and disbelief? It's so frustrating to have to justify it over and over again, when the details and aspects of our relationship is no one's business but ours.