May 13, 2005 11:35
So much Drama has occured in the past couple of days... sorry i havn't been able to update.
lets see.. monday i borught amber and kelsey to the appt. Amber and shane ended up having sex during our lunch.
Then they picked me and amber up after school and took her home. We get a phone call from sam saying AManda..(appt. neighbor) was in the ER becasue she had an alleric reaction to her meds... So we go into the waiting room and I see amber there.. I was like WTF? ( she had to go in for a depression evaluation) or something like that. So her and I talk. Then we leave.. Sam stayed. A little bit later Sam comes back SCREAMING at shane and I cuz i let Amber and Shane have sex. Shane goes outside to cool off. and Sam grabs a Knife and runs in the bedroom. I freaked out and ran outside screamsing shes got a knife. Her and Shane wrestel for it. Then Shane got a hold of it and called her sstupid. Which she is for that shit. But a little bit after that I guess she took 12 vic. (500 mg) a bottle of tylenol, motrin and steves perscription. She didnt say anything except that tell shane she loves him. We made dinner and then Amanda tryed to wake her up. She wouldnt budge. We were all screeaming at her, telling her to get up and shit. but she still didnt move.. we tryed to open her eyes but they were in the back of her head. her heart beat was really fast and she was bearly breathing. Shane called 911 and we were trying to get her in the car. cuz we waited like 5 minutes adn they wernt showing up. So we got her in car and we turn the corner of the appt. drive way. Sam starts wakeing up but shes shaking and saying im fine, just let me die. I was so scared.. The abulence was coming around the corner. so we honked at them. The came and got sam.. She kept telling them..just let me die. I waled away, and just cryed. She kept saying it was my fault that she wanted to die. does anyone sseroiusly have any idea how that feels? Blah blah the rest of the night was just a blur.. but in the end everything turned out ok. she had her stomach pumped.
I didnt go to school Tuesday. We just sat around and slept.
but the rest of the week was blah..
im in holly right now at owens sisters baby sitting his neice. his friend is sleeping on the couch.
ill be in pontiac the rest of the weekend.. ohh and i wont be at the appt. any more. im sorta running away.
i love ya'll
~sunshine~