that amazing moment where you jump around the ladies bathroom with your friend
I have huge, gigantic, monumental news to share...
I GOT ACCEPTED INTO UNIVERSITY TODAY!!!!
During high school I had never been tempted by the idea of university, nobody in my family ever went so it wasn't something that was deemed as necessary growing up, it never fell into my plans of what to do after school. When high school was wrapping up and everyone was talking about university I was vehemently against it 'I just finished 12 years of schooling, I'm not going back for more, fuck off!'
Then as I got older I got more and more serious about my writing (as y'all have undoubtedly noticed) and I realised that to make a career out of it I need to have amazing and polished skills, which would require further training. After I failed to make it into Big Brother last year I decided to throw myself into university and applied to do a Bachelor of Arts, focusing on English and Writing. I've had this floating around in my brain for nearly a year, but I didn't tell y'all coz I didn't want you getting your hopes up only to have them let down. But now that it's official.... LET'S PARTY!!!
I was convinced I wasn't going to get in, my ATAR (one's overall mark for end of school exams) was a few points too low to meet the course requirements. I think that because I'm a 'mature learner' they didn't pay as much attention to my ATAR, thankfully. It's not as good as it could be, probably all of those French lessons Skyler and I just didn't show up to, oops! But the University of Newcastle decided to look past this and give me a chance, I'm eternally grateful to them for this.
The results came out at 9PM last night but considering I had to be up at 4AM to get ready for a 7AM start at work that was too late, I resigned myself to not knowing until the end of my shift today. Then I go to have my lunch break with my pal Natt, I get my phone out of my bag and lookie here I have a txt. I didn't understand it at first, I think I was at shock, I had to pass the phone to Natt for her to read it and ask her if I got in. Then I started cheering and she hugged me. I started crying because I'm just so relieved and happy. We were hugging and jumping around. I was in an amazing mood for the rest of my shift.
This is the most exciting thing that's happened to me since...sliced bread, I dunno, it's the most exciting thing to ever happen to me! Writing is my whole life and I want to make a career out of it, be published and have my books sold to the whole world and I'm so grateful for this opportunity to take it really seriously and build upon my skillset and improve my work and push myself forward into a whole new stratosphere of creativity.
Because I've been working so much lately and having a job is still an adjustment to me, my writing has been suffering. I used to be able to push out a minimum of three pages of handwriting every single day, lately I've been lucky to get only a single page down. I finished writing the first draft of my original novel toward the end of last year and since then I haven't been able to come up with a new original project, even though I really want to start one. I've been feeling like a bit of a failure as a writer lately. I'm worried that my creativity is a muscle and because I've neglected it in favour of work and socialising it's been dying.
But now here is my chance to reconnect with my muse and reconnect with the world of creativity.
It's a scary thought to go back to school, but I know that this will be a million times better than high school. I'm a totally different person now, a 100% better person. I'll be studying things I'm actually interested in, no more yawning my way through Math lessons or wagging French class. I'll be studying things I'll actually use in my futurelife.
But it's scary to want something this badly and set myself up with such high standards.
I'm going to work my ass off 24/7, I want to gain as much as I can from this experience. I was so close to not getting in, I can't waste a single second, this is a blessing.
I'm going to see if I can do uni on a part-time basis and then I can still keep my job. I COULD quit to focus on uni and nothing else. BUT I like having money in my account and I would like to keep this job and get as much out of that opportunity as well. It's very exciting to put my writing before my job again, this is the way it should be. This will keep me from dying as nothing more than a Master's employee.
I begin on the 3rd of March, before then there's fun stuff like orientation week to look forward to. I really can't wait. This is going to change everything, change it for the better