here's what I do: I like to pretend I'm a talkshow host
It drives me CRAZY when someone starts a conversation with me on MSN and then they say next to nothing. I talk A LOT, even online, I can't help myself, I have this complusion to entertain people. So when I talk to someone on MSN I always say at least 3 lines (like at the minimum, unless I'm in a bad mood or they aren't saying much so I don't say much to get back at them, lol), I try to be funny and sympathetic to whatever is going on in their lives. It makes me CRAZY when I type so much and they can't manage more than FIVE WORDS, meanwhile I'm there struggling to think of things to say to keep the conversation going and I KNOW they've checked out. It seems like these people don't really have anything to say, they just don't have anything better to do. If I type something long and detailed just 'lol' is NOT an appropriate reply! I think a conversation (like a relationship) should be about equals, both participants contribute an equal ammount. Am I so crazy? Apparently, 'coz I keep getting stuck with people who do the opposite. I usually feel like a talkshow host, asking them 'how do you feel about this?', 'how did everything go with that?', 'what did you do last weekened?' and etc, but with a couple of particular people I'd be lucky to have them ask me questions about my own life...guess it's too boring for them, whatever
That's not to say I don't have some great conversations on MSN. Jasmine and I ALWAYS have epic and long conversations about Twilight/Supernatural/Heath Ledger with some Johnny Depp entering in. Jasmine obides by my rules, she contributes as much as me and we usually talk for hours, rambling like complete crazy people. But it's fun and I never leave conversations with her feeling like she doesn't give a shit about me. I hate feeling like a clown, only there to entertain people, nevermind how I feel, yet I keep getting put in this situation. It sometimes makes me feel like what's the point of being friends with this person, what's the point of putting energy into being nice?
Ugh. Who knows?
But that's my bit, I figured I should do a real-life post and this was on my mind...maybe next time I'll bitch about everything I don't like about people's posts on FaceBook, lol, jk
I bought the first of what should be many Christmas presents this morning, 'tis the season for lots of spending. But I feel good because I like going shopping and the accomplishment of finding the item you know will be perfect and that's what happened to me today...hopefully my sucess will continue
I also bought Portia DeGeneres' memoir Unbearable Lightness. I haven't read any of it yet. I'm hoping it isn't too depressing...
After school life is going great, I signed out on Tuesday and afterwards I felt so elated. It was like this pressure (I guess I had gotten used to it) was removed from lungs and I could fill them with the beautiful (filled with gas from people's cars) air. My CAFS teacher says to me 'I'm looking forward to the day I get your bestselling novel', which was very sweet...I didn't ruin the sentiment by telling her not to hold her breath because I'm no where near getting published, I gotta edit a couple hundred more times, lol. It's a great feeling knowing I never have to go back there, FREEDOM! Without school eating up so much time I'm getting heaps of writing done, I don't know if I'm just fooling myself but I feel like I'm writing better now that I'm out of high school, lol, it sounds like wishful thinking, but it's still fun to enjoy :D Being out of school also gives me lots of time for fics and at the moment I'm editting a new St. Fabray angst piece, expect it soon!
There are only 16 days standing between me and the U2 concert, I am so excited, they started in New Zealand yesterday...they're getting closer, YAY!
That's all I got for ya, talk to you later, stay happy :D
That's not to say I don't have some great conversations on MSN. Jasmine and I ALWAYS have epic and long conversations about Twilight/Supernatural/Heath Ledger with some Johnny Depp entering in. Jasmine obides by my rules, she contributes as much as me and we usually talk for hours, rambling like complete crazy people. But it's fun and I never leave conversations with her feeling like she doesn't give a shit about me. I hate feeling like a clown, only there to entertain people, nevermind how I feel, yet I keep getting put in this situation. It sometimes makes me feel like what's the point of being friends with this person, what's the point of putting energy into being nice?
Ugh. Who knows?
But that's my bit, I figured I should do a real-life post and this was on my mind...maybe next time I'll bitch about everything I don't like about people's posts on FaceBook, lol, jk
I bought the first of what should be many Christmas presents this morning, 'tis the season for lots of spending. But I feel good because I like going shopping and the accomplishment of finding the item you know will be perfect and that's what happened to me today...hopefully my sucess will continue
I also bought Portia DeGeneres' memoir Unbearable Lightness. I haven't read any of it yet. I'm hoping it isn't too depressing...
After school life is going great, I signed out on Tuesday and afterwards I felt so elated. It was like this pressure (I guess I had gotten used to it) was removed from lungs and I could fill them with the beautiful (filled with gas from people's cars) air. My CAFS teacher says to me 'I'm looking forward to the day I get your bestselling novel', which was very sweet...I didn't ruin the sentiment by telling her not to hold her breath because I'm no where near getting published, I gotta edit a couple hundred more times, lol. It's a great feeling knowing I never have to go back there, FREEDOM! Without school eating up so much time I'm getting heaps of writing done, I don't know if I'm just fooling myself but I feel like I'm writing better now that I'm out of high school, lol, it sounds like wishful thinking, but it's still fun to enjoy :D Being out of school also gives me lots of time for fics and at the moment I'm editting a new St. Fabray angst piece, expect it soon!
There are only 16 days standing between me and the U2 concert, I am so excited, they started in New Zealand yesterday...they're getting closer, YAY!
That's all I got for ya, talk to you later, stay happy :D