dying
today has been one of those days where nothing goes right at all.. i felt like shit all day and my one resolution to making my day better was garrett.. yet all went down hill from there too.. i came home countiing down the hours til when i'd talk to him.. and of course like every other guy they finally realize im not worth it. and it hurts so bad.. i just dont understand why I cant be loved.. i want so badly to have someone who understands me.. and i thought i did... but like every other guy, he decides im not what he wants, i mean who can blame him? i'm stupid and ugly and every one is better than i am.. i bet even the ugliest guy ever wouldnt consider me..i get my heart crushed every time i fall for someone.. and this time i thought maybe he was different.. i think im gonna be alone for the rest of my life.. i hate being me..