there's nothing i can say to undo this apparantly...
he's gone... he's more gone then ever.... everything i've done i've done for him...EVERYTHING. and now he's left me when i really need someone... he's the only one who knows... no, not true, he and Josh know... and they've both left me right when i've really needed them. and now i fear i may not be here in this world for much longer... if i don't take my own life john most certainly will. and nobody will care as Tyler has made it obvious. i don't know why i'm writing this... especially since i haven't written in here in a VERY long time. oh well... no matter... nothing matters... not true... everything, everyone. except for myself. *walks away slowly crying and wishing she didn't have to...*