so many tears... so many fears.... not enough years...
I have no clue what to say here... I just read one of the scariest/worst (sad worse) lj post ever... I love him... why can't he see that? I love him and ONLY him... and I could never, NEVER hate him. So then why is that what we all each of us fear it? Why do we fear that we'll lose the ones we love most? I can tell you why I fear it: because whenever I let people get too close to my heart, the instant that I need them MOST they leave me... so I fear to love and fear to lose. But can any of YOU tell me why YOU fear losing your g/f b/f?
Anyways... so incase you can't tell I'm crying and have had a rather crappy day. Greg... need I say more? Well for those of you that dun understand who this creep is: he goes to my school and has been pestering me since a few weeks ago to go out with him. Well today at the end of Earth Science he hugged me in front of the whole class and kissed my cheek... I cried right then and there and then ran to the bathroom and threw up multiple times. I hate it... and since I'm posting this Ty's going to read this and think that I was cheating on him and think that I wanted this, like he thought I wanted shtuffs from John (which I DIDN'T!) and I'm going to lose him...........
*shrugs* fine... w/e... but realize that if I do lose him I'm prolly gunna lose it... I think you all understand what I mean too...
>Gloomy Goom
Anyways... so incase you can't tell I'm crying and have had a rather crappy day. Greg... need I say more? Well for those of you that dun understand who this creep is: he goes to my school and has been pestering me since a few weeks ago to go out with him. Well today at the end of Earth Science he hugged me in front of the whole class and kissed my cheek... I cried right then and there and then ran to the bathroom and threw up multiple times. I hate it... and since I'm posting this Ty's going to read this and think that I was cheating on him and think that I wanted this, like he thought I wanted shtuffs from John (which I DIDN'T!) and I'm going to lose him...........
*shrugs* fine... w/e... but realize that if I do lose him I'm prolly gunna lose it... I think you all understand what I mean too...
>Gloomy Goom