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it's 4 am and i've been up since 3 or 3:30 i think...jasmine can't sleep so i can't sleep,she's in her swing she seems to like it...she has th hick-ups,poor baby and she's been sick all day she hasn't been sleeping well at all. amanda doesn't believe me about the fil cheating on her with me thing...thats so stupid.i know its b/c she doesn't want to believe it but damn, it doesn't help that he says "she's full of shit" i dunno what to do about his ass anymore...i've never met anyone who could make me so happy and secure and so broken and insecure at the same time. i told him to call me and let me know what he wants when he figures it out. i think i'm just a back up for whenever him and amanda are fighting or broken up...he says i'm not but thats how i feel.i dunno why he just can't pick. and i really dunno why he just can't tell her the fucking truth...maybe becuz he gets some sick fucking pleasure outta seeing us both want him and shit...fuck.so yeah u know what fil if you can live with dating amanda knowing that you cheated on her with me for the past week and a half then you go right ahead and let that eat away at you...since "i'm full of shit" anyways.the only person i need to be focoused on is jasmine. not you or amanda or even myself, just jasmine.