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i havint updated me journal in a long time because nothing has really happend. i worked all weekend, which i hate doing and my feet were sore the whole entier time. last night ana, brandon, jake,calvin and i went bowling in tweed and then got ice cream and then ana and i decicded that we wanted to wash calvins car, so we spent like, 10 minutes trying to wash the car and ana kept losing control over the power washer thingy that spays out water, and kept getting me in the face. while ana and i were having fun in the cold, the boys were listening to music and calvins car wouldnt start when we were done because the battery died. then we had to call Sparky to come give us a boost. and then we drove jake home and ana, brandon, calvin and i went to anas to play Craneum, it was really fun. i really like hanging out with ana. shes super fun, i realy miss how close we actually used to be before boys came into our lives and all of these worries and emotions. im not saying that i want our boyfriends to go away, i just wish that we were as close as we used to be. but we are so different now. but i dont mind. i love her. i wish all of mt friends were as happy as ana. i just dont know what to do about little emily and dineen. i try to make them have hope about getting a boyfriend or whatever. but i just neevr seem to do anything right, now ive totally fucked up and i have no clue what to do. i love dineen and emily to death and i only want them to be happy. although we arent all happy all the time,but i just wish i ddi things right sometimes, to make them feel better. but i cant make them feel better if they dont open up.
super bowl is stupid and pointless. sports are a waist of time, along with diets, everything is just a waste of time. like, why do we have to go out and kill people because we hate them? why do we have to bomb another country, its all stupid and pointless. just fuckinggrow up and get on with your lives. you dont have to talk to the person if you hate them. i dont get society anymore. sure, there are people who do wonderful things in life, but what about all the hate in the air. all the tension. its silly.
anyways, i think ill go think up ways to make my friends feel better, without them hatting me. im really going to try. i dont like this sad friend thing thats happening. i really dont. i just want everyone to be happy. and have a good live. i just wish that my friends would understand that boys are boys, just like girls. you dont need them. they are just there. and i bet them any money that the love of their life will come and they will find happiness. forver. no matter what.
fuck. i hate this.
emily.
super bowl is stupid and pointless. sports are a waist of time, along with diets, everything is just a waste of time. like, why do we have to go out and kill people because we hate them? why do we have to bomb another country, its all stupid and pointless. just fuckinggrow up and get on with your lives. you dont have to talk to the person if you hate them. i dont get society anymore. sure, there are people who do wonderful things in life, but what about all the hate in the air. all the tension. its silly.
anyways, i think ill go think up ways to make my friends feel better, without them hatting me. im really going to try. i dont like this sad friend thing thats happening. i really dont. i just want everyone to be happy. and have a good live. i just wish that my friends would understand that boys are boys, just like girls. you dont need them. they are just there. and i bet them any money that the love of their life will come and they will find happiness. forver. no matter what.
fuck. i hate this.
emily.