I'm happy.

[me_as_a_mom]

I am so very happy with my life. I am with the love of my life, we are about to get married, and we are expecting our first child(his second). I think I am going to have a boy. I mean, I am going to keep changing my mind about it until it is born or I see very convincing ultrasound pictures, but, every old wives tale leads to a boy. I know they are just old wives tales but, still. The chinese calender says I am having a girl though. I don't know. I mean, I think because I want a girl so much I am going to have a boy. I don't really have a preference. I love my baby no matter what the sex is, I just, at the moment, want a girl. Mostly because of the fact that Maria just had a boy. I don't want Christopher to feel any unhappiness because of this baby. I know he will because of the fact that his daddy who he can't see quite yet lives with this baby and he doesn't. I don't want to think about that right now.

On to my happiness... I am so excited about my and Adam's marriage. I can't wait. I love him so much. I want to spend the rest of my life with him and I know that we will be so happy. I am also very excited about us having our baby. So very excited. I am getting fatter now. Not gaining much weight though. Just getting fatter. If I wear a tight shirt you can really tell. It is exciting to get fatter believe it or not.

Well, I am going to get off of here. Adam should be home soon with dinner. I am so hungry.

Love, Mommy.