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[me_as_a_mom]

This morning I woke up at 7 something and felt so shitty. I've pretty much been asleep all day. I was supposed to go to my neices(in law) birthday party but, that wouldn't have been such a great idea. I sent Alyssa with Adam's dad though. That way I could get a little uninterupted rest so I could get better. She got back home and was all crabby because she missed me. I tried so hard to feel ok so I could take care of her but, I couldn't even stand up without feeling like I was going to either fall down or pass out. I have been so freakin hot too. Like I'm standing right next to a fire or like its one of those freakin scorching hot summer days. I called Adams mom and had her come pick up Aly because I didn't want her to get sick and because I felt I was too sick to do the things she needed me to do. I felt so bad that I wanted to cry. I should always be able to do the things she needs. I hate that I'm sick. Now I feel ok enough to be out of bed so, I want to tell Cheryl that she can bring her back home but, I don't want her to be around me so she gets sick. AHHHHHHH!!!! I feel like CRAP!

I miss my husband. I wish he didn't have to work today. If he was here he could make me feel better. I really don't get to see him very much anymore. He sleeps during the day when I am awake and works at night and then when he gets home I'm asleep. I miss him so much. I don't think he realizes how much. It saddens me.

Well, I'm done writting for now. I'm going to call Cheryl. I miss my baby.

Trishia