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1) Internship on the farm in Virginia this summer. 700 bucks/month for 60 hrs of hard labor a week, outdoors in the humidity and sun and rain and glory and Blue Ridge mountains. Spending an entire summer with the same 7 people, doing the same monotonous work. Ability to put "internship" on a resume. No avenues for escape. Rural Virginia is beautiful. Rural Virginia is reactionary. I don't REALLY love bugs but I need to learn to get over that, I think. Importantly: no Frisbee. None. Also importantly: taking a risk to act on something I feel passionate about.
2) Stay in Northfield, live in our cute house with Jessie. Split time between the Post Office and some other shit job. But get paid 9.28 an hour? Poor for resume. Have my car and the Arb and pickup every night, a lazy unsupervised and probably really boring summer. With people I love. Carlye will be in the cities. Run in the Arb at sunset and then jump into the river and float downstream. Take vacations whenever, work for T-Barr, be able to go home for the weekend.
One is safe and fun and sure. But it won't act on my life at all -- it'll just be another lazy humid summer. One will be challenging and educational and potentially miserable. I wish I didn't have to decide within like three days.
What should I do? What should I do? Here is a real life problem, like my first ever. What I should REALLY do is go to sleep.
2) Stay in Northfield, live in our cute house with Jessie. Split time between the Post Office and some other shit job. But get paid 9.28 an hour? Poor for resume. Have my car and the Arb and pickup every night, a lazy unsupervised and probably really boring summer. With people I love. Carlye will be in the cities. Run in the Arb at sunset and then jump into the river and float downstream. Take vacations whenever, work for T-Barr, be able to go home for the weekend.
One is safe and fun and sure. But it won't act on my life at all -- it'll just be another lazy humid summer. One will be challenging and educational and potentially miserable. I wish I didn't have to decide within like three days.
What should I do? What should I do? Here is a real life problem, like my first ever. What I should REALLY do is go to sleep.