It's been a while

[me_and_him]

I don't know why but I don't write in here as much as
I'd like. I am really busy with...life I suppose.
I have enjoyed spending time with Danza while he has been
here, it's been wonderful. I wish he didn't have to go
back but then again I will be in LA in a few months to
live, and he will only be a few miles once again.
When I woke up today I felt amazing. I truly felt happy
with my life. I feel like I have made a right decision and
that it will truly benefit my future. I want to do what is best
for me. What I feel, and what is real to me. I know in my
heart that he loves me and that his promises are true.
I believe him when he tells me his dreams and his secrets.
It is nice to have that kind of satisfaction. It is 2005.
In a year I will be (probably) engaged...fantastic.

My dad has to go to Albq. because my Nana had a seizure and
she is going to die...I wish I could go, but it his
grandma and it would make me too sad. It is WAY too real.
I want to remember her the way I always have. In her adobe
house making sopapillas, and enchiladas and it was the best Mexican
food you could eat. How she smelled and talked to me in Spanish...
I do wish I could tell her I loved her and have her know who I
am. She will go somewhere better though. I hate talking like this,
I hate knowing that this really does happen to people I care about.
It happens everyday. It makes me hurt.

I hope everyone had a wonderful New Years. Live the days to the fullest.
<3