Changes
I'm not sure if I'm ready for all the changes that are about to come in my life.
My lease on my apartment us up in about a month. This shouldn't be a big deal but it is. I've been here for two years now and I call this apartment my home. I have one of best people in the world as my roommate and I'm not sure if I'm ready to leave him yet. I have no idea where I'm going to live after July 23rd. This scares me like crazy. Going back to moms is not an option for me.
I'm not ready to leave East Lansing yet either. This has been my home for the past four years and all my best friends live here. I'm not ready to start over.
My relationship with my dad has changed for the worst, and I'm not sure if I'm ever going to get past this. I don't even know how to express to him why I'm so angry at him because he's so arrogant and he won't understand. Everything is always my fault with him. I'm embarrassed to be part of his family. I just hope he's happy with this girlfriend who has ruined things, because he doesn't have a relationship with his daughter anymore and he's going to need someone to take care of him when his liver gives out from drinking too much. But than again, he might cheat on her, too, and ruin that relationship. He seems to know how to ruin relationships. If only he would grow a pair and apologize for the things he said to me and the way he said them we could begin to try and regrow some sort of relationship.
There are a few other factors right now that are going to change my life but I'm not sure that this is the appropriate place to tell them. They're better left unsaid for the time being.
I'm trying to tell myself that everything happens for a reason....I just want to know what the reason is.
My lease on my apartment us up in about a month. This shouldn't be a big deal but it is. I've been here for two years now and I call this apartment my home. I have one of best people in the world as my roommate and I'm not sure if I'm ready to leave him yet. I have no idea where I'm going to live after July 23rd. This scares me like crazy. Going back to moms is not an option for me.
I'm not ready to leave East Lansing yet either. This has been my home for the past four years and all my best friends live here. I'm not ready to start over.
My relationship with my dad has changed for the worst, and I'm not sure if I'm ever going to get past this. I don't even know how to express to him why I'm so angry at him because he's so arrogant and he won't understand. Everything is always my fault with him. I'm embarrassed to be part of his family. I just hope he's happy with this girlfriend who has ruined things, because he doesn't have a relationship with his daughter anymore and he's going to need someone to take care of him when his liver gives out from drinking too much. But than again, he might cheat on her, too, and ruin that relationship. He seems to know how to ruin relationships. If only he would grow a pair and apologize for the things he said to me and the way he said them we could begin to try and regrow some sort of relationship.
There are a few other factors right now that are going to change my life but I'm not sure that this is the appropriate place to tell them. They're better left unsaid for the time being.
I'm trying to tell myself that everything happens for a reason....I just want to know what the reason is.