the last hours
and so, here it is...time to shut down the computer and box it up. a sign of the end of summer, the beginning of a new chapter, and the excitement of something on the horizon. this could really be my last summer "home", and i'm not sure how to react. excited that i'm about to live on my own, have a place of my own and sad that i'm really at that point now. who knows, i may never unpack in this house again even if i do return for another summer. everything feels so final and ending. i guess it's a good thing.
i'm super excited about the apartment. my room is shaping up quite nicely and the rest of the apartment is a work in progress. for once in my life i feel like it's really my room. i suppose around the time i came home until i was about 6 i had a very personalized room, but since then it's never really been that way. i've always had two rooms, different feels to each, no real theme or design, a mixture of the things i needed and things that didnt fit at the other house. now it's a room that i've picked out, i've thought about, i've given my personal touch and i'm loving it. it's not that i want to show it off or really that anyone's going to see it for that matter, it's just my own personal sanctuary and will give me joy each day.
a few interesting tidbits....the dresser in my room has been in my moms family for at least 50 years, it's the same thing my mom had with her when she left home for the first time to come to madison to live with my dad, and one of it's drawers (not sure which) is what i slept in my first night home from the hospital when my parents adopted me (there were no promises that my birth mother would give me up so they didnt get their hopes up by buying all the furnishings, so i slept in a drawer with lots of blankets until they got a crib), and now it's my first move officially (i dont count last year since it was basically furnished) and it's with me. i love things like that. i cherish things like that. i've always wanted to have something be so treasured and special. i know some families have lots of things that have been passed down, etc, i guess it's just more meaningful considering how lucky i am to be where i am and to have what i have and what family i have.
so, tomorrow is hopefully the last trip. im starting to think it might not all fit, but we'll have to see. classes start a week from tomorrow. im not terribly excited considering my schedule, but ready to continue on with the whole college bit. that's about it.
here goes nothin!
until next time,
kat
i'm super excited about the apartment. my room is shaping up quite nicely and the rest of the apartment is a work in progress. for once in my life i feel like it's really my room. i suppose around the time i came home until i was about 6 i had a very personalized room, but since then it's never really been that way. i've always had two rooms, different feels to each, no real theme or design, a mixture of the things i needed and things that didnt fit at the other house. now it's a room that i've picked out, i've thought about, i've given my personal touch and i'm loving it. it's not that i want to show it off or really that anyone's going to see it for that matter, it's just my own personal sanctuary and will give me joy each day.
a few interesting tidbits....the dresser in my room has been in my moms family for at least 50 years, it's the same thing my mom had with her when she left home for the first time to come to madison to live with my dad, and one of it's drawers (not sure which) is what i slept in my first night home from the hospital when my parents adopted me (there were no promises that my birth mother would give me up so they didnt get their hopes up by buying all the furnishings, so i slept in a drawer with lots of blankets until they got a crib), and now it's my first move officially (i dont count last year since it was basically furnished) and it's with me. i love things like that. i cherish things like that. i've always wanted to have something be so treasured and special. i know some families have lots of things that have been passed down, etc, i guess it's just more meaningful considering how lucky i am to be where i am and to have what i have and what family i have.
so, tomorrow is hopefully the last trip. im starting to think it might not all fit, but we'll have to see. classes start a week from tomorrow. im not terribly excited considering my schedule, but ready to continue on with the whole college bit. that's about it.
here goes nothin!
until next time,
kat