Jen and Nicole have nothing to do with this

[mdwatkins77]

I do not take shit from anyone. I recieved some information about somethings that were said by an anonymous person. Not a single name was ever placed on it. If you want to accept it as your own feel free to fill us all in. No one ever mentioned being kicked out of anything. what was mentioned was relationships in jeopardy. So if anyone has a

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[mdwatkins77]

Nicole....I have absolute faith in you....Jen don't take offense to this but you know how honest i am...Nicole I don't want to sound redundant but it is asfe yo say that we know all of us...know each other very well..we all share some strange and beautiful soul connection that has an unusual ebb and flow but it seems to work. We all have so many strengths and they far out weigh or weaknesses...ok Jen here comes the part about you. It isn't mean or ugly but I warned you...Out of all of us sensitive loving rock'n women I feel like Jen is the most guarded and truth be told I don't understan why. She has a tendency to take on the weight of the world and blame herself for things that are truly no one's fault. She also tends to put a negative spin on things that are really nuetral. The negative spin build and builds in her mind until it becomes an attack even though in reality it isn't. I do the same thing when things in my life go wrong ie...Western Carolina loosing my application and therefor they wouldn't even consider me. I fell apart. My direction and my future were destroyed. At least that is what my mind was telling me. I cried and cried and cried. I have learned that this response is actually a PTSD trigger with me. Back tpo our sweet Jen. I believe that her reaction is similar to mine in that it is a trigger of sorts. Jen correct me if I am wrong. She gets defensive and hurts. She reacts to the hurt by shutting people out and changing aspects of her life. It is her way of trying to protect herself and to deal with the tremendous pain she feels becuase the pain is linked to another raw spot in her soul. She gets scared and fears being abandoned so instead of being abandoned she jumps ship. In the year and a half I have known her she always bounces back and that is an amzing quality she has. We have all witnessed it time and time again. In her heart she knows that we are all with her but her mind when panicked cancel that out. Once she has centered herself everything goes back to normal so just know that she truly knows that we are going no where just like I know you aren't going anywhere. In all honesty I can't think of a single thing that could destroy the connection that you, Jill, Tina, Lindsay, Jennifer an I share. Sometimes there is more space and distance between different sets of us but that is just the organic ebb and flow of our crazy, beautiful, simple yet complex disfunctional little family and oddly enough it seem sto work. We all love and value each other. God we 6 are so loyal it is almost amazing.....Michelle