reality hits
waking up today if i even slept was hard i didnt want to get out of bed because i didnt ever want this day to come. a day when reality hit. i'm without my Vicky and that is all. The love of my life is gone. out doing her own thimg without me and it hurts probably more then it did yesterday. i want to call her or im her and i cant cause it would probably look like i was stalking her or not even giving her the space she asked for. i dont know how long i can go without hearing her voice but maybe i will find out how long she can go without seeing me. Love were is the love when you cant talk, see, or be with someone that you love. i dont think i slept for more then 1 hour last night due to the fact that when i fell asleep i didnt have my normal dream (weddings and life with Vicky) instead i dreamed about Vicky but she was with someone else. i dont know who but i wasnt me and that hurts to b/c usually when i dream something it comes true later on. sometimes it doesnt and i hope this is one of those times. i want to im her so bad but i know she will get mad at me b/c i am invading her space. i know we need this space but for once i wasnt one of the guys who screwed her over or left her and i still ended up where they are, without her. it sucks today my dad asked me if we were going to get back together and i didnt know the answer but i am kicking myself in the ass right now b/c when she asked for the space before (were we are still togther and she would still wear my engagement ring) i told her that we can work things out but now i have nothing and that sucks. VIcky i miss you and i know it sounds pathetic b/c it has only been 1 day but you are my soul mate and only 1 of those come around in a lifetime and i cant have you or at least you say for right now but do you serriosly know if we are going to get back together. even though i believe you are my soul mate do you believe that i am yours. my love is growing greater for you in your absence right now it like the song 3 DOORS DOWN "HERE WITHOUT YOU". A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there’s only you and me
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl, there’s only you and me
Before i go my dad asked me if you will still be going with me to SEA ISLE and i told him yes b/c of the fate i still have. but i know i cant call you or im you or see you with the exception of school and i wont bring it up there so.......i know you probably dont read this anymore it not b/c you dont want to it is b/c you have your own life now without me and what is the point of reading about some one that you are trying to have a break with. anyways i hope it is everything you hoped for and i do b/c as long as you are happy that is all that matters to me. i love you Vicky and i always will and there shall be no other. oh and you told me to go out and do things well im going to go out with my dad and maybe play golf so i am trying for you but it is still hard but he also stills says that he wants to pay for a good portion of the wedding cause he believes in the fate i believe in and he told me last night to tell you that he loves you and he misses you too.......to his future daughter-in-law. P.S. colene misses you to and so does scott so take your time and come back to me i will be waiting...forever!
A thousand lies have made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there’s only you and me
The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there’s only you and me
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it’s all said and done
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there’s only you and me
I’m here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl, there’s only you and me
Before i go my dad asked me if you will still be going with me to SEA ISLE and i told him yes b/c of the fate i still have. but i know i cant call you or im you or see you with the exception of school and i wont bring it up there so.......i know you probably dont read this anymore it not b/c you dont want to it is b/c you have your own life now without me and what is the point of reading about some one that you are trying to have a break with. anyways i hope it is everything you hoped for and i do b/c as long as you are happy that is all that matters to me. i love you Vicky and i always will and there shall be no other. oh and you told me to go out and do things well im going to go out with my dad and maybe play golf so i am trying for you but it is still hard but he also stills says that he wants to pay for a good portion of the wedding cause he believes in the fate i believe in and he told me last night to tell you that he loves you and he misses you too.......to his future daughter-in-law. P.S. colene misses you to and so does scott so take your time and come back to me i will be waiting...forever!