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so what is it about me that makes me so repulsive..that drives everyone away..even when i try to be open...am i just a person who people cant connect with...do i intimidate? am i really that horrible of girl...that horrible of catch...not worth n e thing but a good night? so the world seems to tell me. my heart is now closed off..and i fear i will never be able to open it again..for any one, except one...but once again...i am not the one...or as he says...he doesnt know what the future holds...i doubt it...my future holds no love. i would give n e thing to make him see how i could make him happy...but...i guess i am not good enough...i cant even prove my love..people just dont want it. and so a lonely path lay ahead...and i journey on this long road by myself. i dont need love to be happy in life...its just easier without it...and i dont need the pain it causes...i wont show anyone my emotions...i will hide my weakness(love) and pain..so no one can use them against me again. people says its not me...but how can it not be...if it wasnt...i wouldnt have a problem obviously...i wish i could figure it out.