Done Since 2021-08-15
It's just barely possible that I'm getting a little productivity back, after several years of drifting. Maybe. I did more work Thursday and Friday on $writing-gig-2 than I have in months. Maybe? And I've actually played my guitar(s) and/or sang three times this week. Which I think beats the previous two or three.
The previous occupant, c, has officially moved out of the studio ADU behind Rest Stop (AKA the Lair), so I have started moving in. Sort of. I wonder whether it will ever start feeling like home. I wonder whether it will ever be safe for the cats -- there's no entryway of any sort.
I realized yesterday (waking up from a bad dream that involved moving) that I'm grieving for some of the places I've left, as well as for the people I've lost. Also that I'm still not okay. I don't know how far from okay. I also know perfectly well that it's "normal" not to be okay after a major loss. And that between anxiety and dysthymia, I have no idea what "okay" would be like anyway.
It looks as though Monday is officially Bagel Day -- stopping at the Whidbey Bagel Factory on the way down to Rest Stop.
Notes & links: 0815Su * up 8:15; S=7:46, BP=116/72, P=61, W=199.0; @ The 1Password Disaster (And Two Brilliant 1Password Alternatives) | by Mark Ellis " The issues are twofold: 1) 1Password 8 will become subscription-only, thus removing the option to buy it outright; and 2) they’ve moved the app over to something called Electron. " Ugh! (The alternatives were MacOS Keychain and NordPass) @ MYKI: Offline Password Manager and 2FA Authenticator Myki Password Manager & Authenticator Review | PCMag stored on phone, not cloud @ Bitwarden Open Source Password Manager Bitwarden Review | PCMag * */15 CPAP: change paper filter, ~ wash tub ~ looked for a larger version of Colleen's HS picture; didn't find one * 15min: symlinks and checkins for $writing-gig-2 and $writing-gig-3 # not very much, but the first I've done since Colleen died. I'll take it. x Coupeville Arts & Crafts Festival * grab a few more alcohol preps for toiletries kit. * bring down the box of swiffer wet mopping pads * load drugs, acohol preps, $l, $o * start laundry 0816Mo * up 6:15; S=6:11, BP=123/74, P=65; exercises, heat * pack. Including a couple of hand towels and washcloths * Bagels, 2 tubs cream cheese -- EVERY Monday - G will get lox. G likes everythings * c will be at M's, so lair more-or-less ready for move-in -> here for the day; some things still being packed. * check in on eCare for tomorrow's appt. @ "Tow Rope Girls" from _Fish Out of Water_ by Bounding Main (Words ©1920 C. Fox Smith; Set to "Queer Bungle Rye" by William Pint) (not clear how to parse that last. Did Pint (contemporary) write the tune, or set the poem to the (maybe traditional) tune. I suspect the latter.) The Tow-Rope Girls by Cicely Fox Smith - All Poetry mudcat.org: Lyr/Chords: Tow Rope Girls (C Fox Smith) * set alarms for tomorrow & retrieve Neptune Society mailings from spam folder. @ 12 Weeks of Peace: Week 1: Dealing with Grief @ Thinking Ahead: Week 1: Taking Inventory - Neptune Society : the little purple dragon has been named Lilac (according to m) -> Violet (m on We) 0817Tu * up 7ish; S=7:37; exercises * leave 9:15 for Dr. Downey -- $G says 8 min. * 9:45 checkin for 10am appointment Dr. Downey NW hospital McMurry building Suite 300 https://www.uwmedicine.org/sites/stevie/files/2019-12/A4289.UWMC-NW_VisitorMaps.pdf * 15min: make link files for the Neptune Society series. @ Twelve Weeks of Peace: Week 1: Dealing With Grief Thinking Ahead: Week 1: Taking Inventory (will take a great deal longer than 6 weeks - requires talking to strangers) & read through both series (because I do that). Will now go back to 1 day at a time @ The T-Mobile Data Breach Is One You Can’t Ignore | WIRED * measure space above water heater for shelf (will one of the slide-on baskets fit?) -> 14" wide, 16" deep. purple ped is 24" high, so it _will_ fit under the desk @ Interoception: the hidden sense that shapes wellbeing | Science | The Guardian " it is only when the brain detects the alteration to the body’s internal state, through interoception, that we actually experience the feeling and allow it to shape our behaviour. " * */15 Molly 0818We & awake 3ish; % some acid reflux -> tums * up 7:15ish; S=5:48 (plus some dozing); * dishes * check BECU statement to get current income (Colleen's share should be gone -> it is) @ Joint Statement from HHS Public Health and Medical Experts on COVID-19 Booster Shots | HHS.gov -> : My second dose was 2/17, so been fully-vaccinated on 3/3. 8 months after that would be early November. @ Overview-Eleventy, a simpler static site generator. @ Israeli data: How can efficacy vs. severe disease be strong when 60% of hospitalized are vaccinated? -> Simpson's paradox - Wikipedia " the fact that older people have an inherently higher risk of hospitalization when infected with a respiratory virus means that it is always important to stratify results by age " * AC arriving today -> ~ hand truck Home Despot Aisle 58 Bay 002 -> from home ~ one of the old multi-outlet extenders -- with screw, for lair -> ordered, arr. Fr * 15min: remove Colleen's meds from medications file @ T‑Mobile Shares Additional Information Regarding Ongoing Cyberattack Investigation | T‑Mobile Newsroom -> Our Response to the Data Breach (Aug 2021) | T-Mobile * 15min: bring in purple 3-drawer ped and put under desk. Would fit under the return if the wheels were taken off. However, it rolls back far enough to be out of the way. : response on uploading chart from UW: " under the 3-line "Menu" button, you will find "Ask a Question" under Communication. From there, you may "Ask Your Clinic A Question," and "Attach an Image or Video." " 0819Th & Awake 3:45ish; S=5:07; * up 7ish; S=6:39, BP= 102/68, P=67; # get external ip address -- one would like to use this to set Location: in posts curl icanhazip.com # if that's unreachable, the following will also work: host myip.opendns.com resolver1.opendns.com | grep 'has address' | cut -d' ' -f4 * hard-boil some eggs for m * make example repo, files for $writing-gig-2. % pleased with myself? It's the most I've done on it recently; maybe ever. * yak-shaving.: empty, load, run dishwasher. Need the wok for making stir-fry tonight; since it was in the sink with dishes in/on it, ... % 5pm sleepy, or something like it. Drifty. * 15min: move mic stand with guitar hook to behind me in desk area. * dinner: chicken stir-fry. Should have made more rice. * guitar - a verse or so of Lily et. al., Eyes Like the Morning, and Wheelin' 0820Fr & awake 3ish; S=5.1; back to bed 4am * up 8ish; S=8:50; @ There’s Only One Right Way to Cook Scrambled Eggs scrambled in the pan. Which is the way I've been doing it all along. (low heat, which I _haven't_ been doing much) * found command line for getting SSID: iwgetid --raw @ OnlyFans’ porn ban is indefensibly cruel. OnlyFans Says It Is Banning Sexually Explicit Content - The New York Times OnlyFans’ inexplicable ban on porn might be explained by this BBC investigation OnlyFans’ porn ban is crypto’s opportunity of a lifetime | TechCrunch " crypto industry which could capitalize on the shutdown and a recent wave of increasingly consumer-friendly crypto payments infrastructure products to create a platform that won’t crumble under the influence of payment providers. " OnlyFans’ Explicit Content Ban Betrays Its Creators | WIRED Why OnlyFans ditched sexually explicit content: credit card companies - CNN @ 18 Best Cloth Face Masks: Ones We Actually Like to Wear (Updated 2021) | WIRED % some pain in my right ear. Does not appear to be a pressure-equalization problem * quite a lot of progress (finally!) on $writing-gig-2, spurred on by email from $editor x 15min: singing - setlist? * tried to install one of the multi-taps (the one on the front wall) -- failed. Turned my legs into rubber in the process. The night lights aren't quite bright enough; might work if there were more places to put them. Or find a brighter one for bathroom 0821Sa & awake 2am; S=3:25; -> gave up 4:20 % woke, whimpering, from a dream about moving -- we'd been sleeping in a van or other vehicle outside a house that was something like 188 Perry Ave.; movers had just arrived and I stumbled into clothes to show them where things went. -> Some of the places we've lived -- Perry Ave., the Starport, and Rainbow's End in particular were, if not exactly _people_, were at any rate _characters_; I'm mourning the places I've left nearly as much as the people I've lost. No need to tell me that it's okay; I know. -> whimpering / dry sobbing # 2:20 no WiFi connection... -> 4:25 connected to RS2 & Awake 4:20; some reading; back down 5:20 * up 7:15ish; S=7:12; * guitar: bad guys (on Plink) * 9am drive up; arrived ~11:15ish. Lobster roll on the way up - hours 11-3 Fr-Sa @ California judge overturns Prop 22 ballot measure that classified Uber and Lyft drivers as contractors, finding it unconstitutional - The Washington Post & run self-test on raven. Complains of status change but there have been no recent errors. -> Reinstall the suite -> run basic (5m) PASS, extended (64m) PASS self-tests * 15min: locate items to go down to RS (see combined list in 0822Su) : A number of things from Mom's -- including her cable box and R's Bose radio -- appear to have gone missing. E? Or am I overlooking something incredibly stupid? -> R's Bose is in his box where it ought to be (on the bottom where it was easy to miss); the box I thought I remembered as containint the cable box is in fact a box from a phone re-purposed to hold a glass bowl. & shut down Mom's iMac - no good reason for it to be on. @ Monoclonal antibodies are free and effective against covid-19, but few people are getting them - The Washington Post " The Regeneron product is authorized for people 12 and over with mild to moderate covid-19 who are not hospitalized and don’t need supplemental oxygen. The treatment is effective within 10 days after symptoms appear " % 1. it may not exactly be grieving. Grief+anxiety+depression? 2. I am NOT all right. * 15min: singing - in car? no. Latrt... target: 9pm Bells of Norwich, Ship of Stone, The River * 15min: declutter desk more like 10, but still... reduced mail pile % 9:45ish - can't get started. Should go to bed * 12:34 heading for bed
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