Done Since 2021-05-23
I think I'm dealing with chronic depression these days -- Colleen's been gone for going on two months now, so it probably isn't caregiver burnout anymore. Colleen's infections, ulcer, and other problems seem to be mostly controlled right now; the remaining problem is that she isn't getting enough PT to be able to get around at home. So that would add anxiety to the depression. Which is why I'm taking a drug that's supposed to be effective against both.
I had a couple of visits with Colleen this week -- Tuesday and Thursday -- and she calls me every day (usually more than once) so I don't have to remember to call her unless I want to draw her attention to a link I've sent her in email.
Meanwhile, I've been moderately "productive" sorting stuff in the garage and trying to install another set of wire shelves on the back wall. (It's this set -- I've also acquired another set to go under the breakfast bar for recycling bags, counter-top appliances, etc.) Working in the garage adds to the depression because I keep running into reminders of past living spaces and unfinished projects, but it's better -- I think -- than endlessly looking at shelving units at Amazon and half expecting them to appear in the garage already loaded. That's probably why people hire organizers.
I've mentioned "The Game of Rat and Dragon", by Cordwainer Smith several times before; it came up again in conversation on Thursday. As it does.
Notes & links:
0523Su * litter boxen & Awake 1:30ish; down 2:40 * up 6:45ish; S=5:52, BP=123/76, P=63; shower % heat for back pain @ Blog - Guides | JetPens How to Store Pens (via hobby of the day (my comment)) Rabbit hole. Too many things I want. * 15min: put up the new bottom shelf in the garage (6', replacing ?4'6") * started installing Ubuntu 20.04 on (Dell Lattitude E6430 from RS)delta. Left Win7 leaving the W$ partition(s) is a bit quixotic, since I don't have passwords. Later. % meloxicam 10pm 0524Mo & Awake 2:45ish; back to bed 4:15 * up 7ish; S=6:53; @ Welcome to The Home Edit 14-Day Mini Edit for Your Home organizing books and phone apps by color :P @ Texas Becomes Third State To Pass Free-Range Kids Law - Reason.com * 15min: laundry; a little tidying/organizing @ Quick accessibility tests - YouTube (10 quick accessibility tests that everyone can do - TetraLogical) * 2pm care conference by phone - to discuss discharge date and goals (Social worker)Adriana ext. 1086 -> ~2 weeks -> a week from Friday, 0604Fr @ Project: Hug: A Pick-Your-Path Flash Fiction Escape (Birch Hearts) - Kindle edition by Birch, Elva. (ellenmillion) purchased * purchase rear-view mirrors for scooter. ! because it was in an emacs buffer, re-read "In Your Arms" -- and cried a little. : 8pm it's raining % 8:20 nasty headache, localized above and to the left of my left eye. Ouch. -> I guess that settles the question of whether to take meloxicam (8:30) . Colleen wants shelves under the bar -> ordered 5-tier shelf unit and wine shelf. might not work as well as I'd hoped. % 10:50 diphenhydramine (2*25mg) 0525Tu * up 6:15; W=198.8, S=7:13, BP=135/79, P=62; * 15min: 6' top shelf in garage. (Had to cut down the 8' board) * 1:20 (alarm set) leave for... * 2pm visit with Colleen / She did an unassisted bed-to-wheelchair transfer today. For some reason the PT was surprised that she could do it. * 15min: cut down and bag up the big hemlock on the mound. -> Parts are still there. Used nitryl gloves; apparently someone used one of the gloves for paint (or something else white), took it off (turning it inside-out), and left it on the dryer. :P * wrapping paper to garage @ SVS: May 26, 2021 Total Lunar Eclipse 50%(3:20-(4:11-4:26)-5:15) am PDT tonight % 7ish sleepy... major slowdown. Depression? * working on Mathilda/bootstrap.sh 0526We * Up 5:30ish; BP=121/74, P=59; * test/debug Mathilda/bootstrap.sh on Delta * move "Here I Stand" back next to the door : they're here to put down the gravel alongside the walkway. -> tested scooter turning radius. -> Plenty of room. * 15min: look at end tables on $A * pay Quicksilver * raise withholding on Schwab. Owe money this year, apparently. -SSA form 1099V (by mail)- -> Schwab I can do with an email -> Schwab, because it keeps take-home the same. Raise to 15%? Need another $2500 -> raise by 10% because halfway through the year, drop 5% next year & Home Depot was having a sale on Ryobi batteries: $99 for 2x4Ah plus charger, plus a free tool -- I picked the 110V inverter, which I'd been thinking of buying anyway Apparently Ryobi is the HD house brand, which explains why it's more expensive on $A % meloxicam 10:35 (should have taken it earlier) 0527Th * up 5:30; S=6:43; exercises % I seem to be running the Rainbow Caravan Home for Orphaned Computers. * 10:20 leave for... (V called to verify time) * 11am visit with Colleen; V will be also coming to this one * schedule work on Molly -> LABEL_ERROR_BOUNDARY_GENERIC_ERROR on sable:firefox, sable:chromium, and the android app. Chat agent suggested connection Center Team at 877-558-8352. IIRC that didn't go well the last time either. Logging out and back in on the phone didn't help either. Bill Pierre Chev. (206) 673-3390 service (206) 971-9838 web https://www.pierrechevrolet.com/schedule-service.html -> that worked 1pm Wed. @ The Project Gutenberg eBook of The Game of Rat and Dragon, by Cordwainer Smith Game of Rat and Dragon : Cordwainer Smith : audio book : Internet Archive Book Club: The Game of Rat and Dragon - Pain In The Bud blog about cat stories mdlbear | Songs for Saturday: Of Shoes and Ships and Cats * bug-fixing in copy-firefox-important-files (on delta) * 6ish listened to the podcast. I've listened to that one before; doesn't work as well for me as an audiobook as it does in print. Still a good story. Because cats. audiobook starts 7:21 c.f. the above-mentioned s4s post ! quite a bit of emotion listening to it, in spots. Because cats. @ I Called Off My Wedding. The Internet Will Never Forget " I met with Omar Seyal, who runs Pinterest’s core product. I said, in a polite way, that Pinterest had become the bane of my online existence. “We call this the miscarriage problem,” Seyal said,... " Um... yeah. that. 0528Fr * up 6:30; S=7:30; : delta is having problems with video on some sites; YT okay; not clear whether that's due to what I copied from sherman with copy-firefox-important-files, but it's likely. -> needed ffmpeg for codecs. it's in one of the optional sets, should be in both : call from OnStar tech support - the problem with scheduling service through the website is reproducible, and the app apparently has _never_ worked. WTAF?? cf D0g/2018/chevy.done (contains entries from 2017 as well) * 15min: callback from Chelsea at Regency; only slot they had was 6pm Wed. -> rescheduled Molly for 1pm Tuesday * 15min: a little reorganizing among the plastic bins next to the desk * 15min: some progress on reducing the mail pile to the right of the desk * 15min: add LRF support to Delta (all but one of the original LRF had come off) * garage. Cleared one box from the side stack; some progress on left-hand back boxes Found nesting dolls (in plastic bin with tea canisters), the other plastic bin had luggage straps and other stuff from RE dresser area % the memories got to me a little * guitar - a little noodling with talking blues and Lily et. al. It's been a long time Note that I have not been attending Balticon; should probably pop in tomorrow. % meloxicam 10:15 0529Sa & awake 2ish, very briefly for bathroom break * up 6am; BP=117/71, P=59, S=6:56 % back pain: lower left. Heat; we'll see whether that works well enough @ Troy Hunt: Pwned Passwords, Open Source in the .NET Foundation and Working with the FBI : Joined Balticon filk track just after the start of Sassafrass's set * started disassembling Colleen's paperwhite. See Kindle Paperwhite 2nd Generation Charging Port Replacement - iFixit Repair Guide Lots of fiddly little screws. I think I cleared the port with some poking from behind so I won't have to take out the motherboard and try (and probably fail) to replace it. -> nope. Still broken. Worse, if anything. % 2:30 Despite having had fried matzoh for breakfast and ramen for lunch, I think my blood sugar is still a bit low. -> trail mix and a matzoh with garlic. Probably ok & a bit of a walk. A short distance past Nautilus ! slowdown going from the foot of the driveway to behind the garage. -> depressed? * garage sorting. % 5:26 feeling very tired, somewhat drifty but not sleepy. Like not wanting to move. * 15min: start setting up the wire shelves, which arrived today, under the bar. Final adjustments will wait for the wine shelf, arriving Monday. % 10:20 meloxicam
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