Done Since 2018-03-25
A lot going on, most of it not good, but not really something I can talk about right now because it's mostly other people's stories.
The financial trainwreck is still going on; the crash is getting closer. I have a couple of job leads, but I'm way behind on personal writing and programming projects. Because reasons, but still. Not good.
One bright note is that the tax hit isn't going to be nearly as bad as I was expecting -- so far I'm only down about $3K. If we weren't in the middle of sinking $80K into building the ADU, I'd be in pretty decent shape except for the negative cash flow. As it is, it'll be coming out of my IRA.
Too many decisions that seemed like the right thing to do at the time, spread out over decades and leaving me with no resources. And it's almost impossible for me to just them let go of them, stop the "if only's". It's one thing when I'm giving that advice to other people.
The other bright note (literally?) is that my singing is improving noticably; there are times when I can actually hear a difference from one verse to the next, even though I can't tell exactly what I'm doing differently.
Notes & links:
03125Su * Up 7am; ; & 9:45 cleanup. Not too bad physically this time; not sure what's different. % I wonder whether "I'm sorry" is apologizing to _myself_ for feeling some combination of upset/angry/annoyed/whatever. Apologizing to myself and *whoever else is there* (usually C) for _the self-talk that they're not hearing_ -- ok, it's irrational, but it's starting to make sense. The self-talk is barely even there anymore. * starting to catch back up in dialecticdreamer) starting from Kitchen Conniptions (part 1 of 5, complete) (back in February) @ zeeth_kyrah | Song of the Space Whale (fiction) * shrimp Louie for lunch. Fortunately, there was another bottle of dressing on deck. * cleared a file box of CDs -- the one with only one row, but still... * order printer ink % my (mild) expletive of choice these days seems to be "oh, dear" * 3:15 QV in D. Drop D doesn't seem to work quite as well. I'm having trouble tracking the melody in places without the guitar directly under it, but I'll get it. * start tax data entry - all income except some investments and Vanguard's 1099R Only owing $2946 at this point, and that's with standard deduction. So we'll see. : 7:50ish heard the sound of hungry kittens from N's room. & heck of a time getting the cats into our room. 0326Mo % dream - office; I was new on the job; I was about to reformat my box when someone said that they were looking for a backup copy of... usenet? ...and I appeared to have the only one. Meanwhile someone was stealing a magical object in the shape of a very thin bracelet or nose ring shaped like a dragon, and someone else was forking the Ethereum blockchain with something involving colors instead of coins. um... * up 5:14; W=204.0; * The Joy of Tech comic... Why are you still on Facebook? (flowchart) @ Image Metadata, GPS Location, Exif Tags and Privacy Leaks - Kristian Glass * a little more on taxes * safety - mostly, identify threats % 8:57 despondent. My breathing feels almost like I've been crying, but I haven't. The last year and a half have been an unqualified disaster. % I'm cold and probably hungry. I should do something about those. 0327Tu * Up 6:30; W=202.6; @ siderea | [soc/anthro] The Recipe, Or What you don't know about LJ/DW (ysabetwordsmith) liv | Happy third birthday, Dreamwidth! (discussion of the above) [lj, psych] The Seven Kinds of Journal Post Topic - Sibylla Bostoniensis Recommended Minimum Weekly Posts by Type: " 0.5 diary entry 3 pointers 0.5 bleg a question put to your readership (from blog+beg) 0.25 op ed it's not a matter of proportion, it's actually just absolute number: at least three pointer posts, no matter what else you do. " bleg - Wiktionary @ Ten Skype alternatives and a highly secure wildcard: bitmessage - Concise Courses Signal Adds Video Calls, Better Quality---And a New Privacy Tradeoff | WIRED Signal >> Blog >> Standalone Signal Desktop Looks like video only works on phones built using electron, of course. : call from UW Physicians: unpaid bill for C. Paid (AX). 0 balance for me. So we probably won't have any more except for maybe UNW. @ Facebook Container Extension: Take control of how you’re being tracked (G) * removed chains from swag lamp cords; raised the one in the center of the house to keep it away from Bronx; and shortened the one on the west side and threaded it behind the shelves. Much neater. * pasta (shells) Alfredo with onion, garlic, and gorgonzola - came out well. * mail safety checklist to N and M & cleanup * found the New American Funding mortgage 1098 % 9ish drifty * 10ish did a little more sorting - bins on the windowsill in the bedroom. 0328We * up 6:35; W=202.6; * get N's meds out of Chinese box @ Blogs for bloggers - Gary McGath Make A Living Writing - Practical Help for Hungry Writers Freelance Writing Gigs With Great Pay: 50 Niches to Explore @ Yoast SEO - WordPress Plugins if one wants to be a professional blogger. @ Travis CI User Documentation % feels like Sunday or something. Still. Lack of structure, maybe. & ground beef and mushroom stroganoff % some rather painful but brief leg cramps. @ 7 little-known niches that could make you a boatload of money Specialize @ Landing page - Wikipedia @ WTF is an Airdrop? A Detailed Guide to Free Cryptocurrency : Several of my Amazon orders arrived. The canvas med bags are too small, at least for C's med container. They fit mine. We'll see whether N can use one. : The black locking box is pretty huge, but it will work well on the top of the counter. (The other one, arriving tomorrow or the next day, will be about the same size but prettier.) @ Glitch - The community where you'll build the app of your dreams maybe some useful stuff. % feeling kind of lost. 0329Th-0401Su Norwescon -> no 0329Th * Up 6:06; ; shower @ moonvoice | Things I've been thinking about in my spare time because apparently I'm not tired enough? Anxiety scale. I'm somewhere in the 4-6 range * 845am Dr. Rochier check in on medication, esp. 450mg Bupropion. Safe to split a 300 while waiting? -> no -> depression score (PHQ-9) D=11 -> take BP daily. Sit for 5 minutes first; take 5 readings, average middle 3. * track down insurance cards -> having trouble finding these -> emailed; also cancelled renter's policy -- thought I'd done that -- and ordered new copy of the homeowner's policy, which I also can't find and they couldn't either, without couple more searches. WTF? @ Purism at FestiĞ1 and the Librem as a Digital Hardware Wallet - Purism Ğ1 Really interesting concept: Duniter Proof-of-membership -- web of trust Introduction - Duniter Every member gets a dividend (currently 1DU/day); members must be certified by other members. Most members are French or Belgian at the moment. : The Apache music module doesn't actually serve audio -- it serves m3u playlist files, which Chrome doesn't know how to play. They can be played with Totem. The default video app doesn't work. It doesn't look like chrome can change the app it uses -> apparently it tries to use Totem but gets something wrong. -> can't open files with spaces in the name!!!! @ Freelance Marketing Famine? 4 Ways to Find Hungry Clients Want to Get Paid? Nail Down Details in the Freelance Contract % feels like I'm on the edge of tears. * music: Desolation Row (in D), Windward (sung, capoed up 2) -- around the second verse I started finding some resonance that wasn't there before -- definitely noticable. * took g's backpacker into N's room for some time with Cricket. She came over to me and let me pet her. 0330Fr * up 6:05; W=202.6; @ Pay for It | Sibylla Bostoniensis (siderea : Brooklyn got his claws caught on the shopping bag hanging from the doorknob in N's room. Something to watch out for. * clean/clear van. Still dirty, but no CDs and nothing dangerous in it. Some massage stuff that I'll ask N about. * new monitor arm installed. It's on the front of the desk instead of the back because of the interaction between the support beam and the windowsill. Still, it works, there's more space on the desk, and the monitor and laptop screens are equidistant. (I ordered it after Bronx grabbed the monitor with his paws, and came close to toppling it.) * figured out two different ways of locking cabinets: a hasp mounted on the _back_ of the door, or a pair of eye bolts at right angles, with the smaller passing through the larger but big enough to take a padlock. So that will work. % still not used to shopping/cooking for two. : so it's Bronx who's barfing tonight. Don't know what's with the kitties... Ticia sat by each of the three spots in turn, to make sure I didn't miss any. Boggle. 0331Sa * Up 3:30; ; Tried to get back to sleep around 4:30; failed, but I had over a hour cuddling with Ticia, (and Colleen, a little) so there's that. % What should I do? Almost every major decision I've made over the last decade -- if not the last three -- has turned out to have been disastrously wrong. Even if they made _sense_ at the time, they were all based on the optimistic assumptions that: - things would continue pretty much as they were - nothing would go disastrously wrong - I had enough of a safety net to survive if they did. "...cheer up - things could be worse... And sure enough, they got worse." All those assumptions were stupidly wrong. Optimism was wrong. @ Pure @ Scalable and Modular Architecture for CSS (book) SMACSS - State @ Elm - home @ gothinkster/realworld: "The mother of all demo apps" - Exemplary fullstack Medium.com clone powered by React, Angular, Node, Django, and many more So you can use a Django instance as a backend. Hmm. Not offered as a one-click install, though. Tour of an Open-Source Elm SPA @ JSON Web Token - Wikipedia * have C call V to see if she can go over to M Monday to do a safety check -> yes @ Sparrows and Penguins - Candidly Autistic @ Datalog - Wikipedia Fully declarative, decidable subset of Prolog, basically. * put desk box cutters, scissors, etc. in a cup. Easy transfer to file cabinet. : Phone call from Aleta Jones (Carleton '69) to make sure I was coming to reunion. & currently operating with the laptop closed because cats. @ Compass Documentation @ Bulma: a modern CSS framework based on Flexbox @ Consulting · Robert Stuttaford, Clojure Enthusiast S(L) example of how to advertise for consulting gigs. Meetings via Zoom * Zip-tie gun and purple locking cabinet arrived. % 9pm B=127/83 139/87 138/71 140/71 110/86 not really clear which are the outliers * guitar: some noodling mostly in Am, and Desolation Row in D. Tried C; doesn't work
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