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0408 We * up 6:35; W=186.6; drugs, coffee, emergen-c ! fuzzy and a little down * water day * 10am meet Colleen at Kaiser (radiology) * Pick up Ali on the way home * 2:30 Susan: print notes -> major insight: Colleen's an extrovert, I'm not. So it's not surprising that she loves Wednesdays, and I get anxiety attacks. Now that I understand what's causing them, I'm fine: I can do something about that. * buy coffee * out for Chinese with N. ! calm, contented. & Colleen (with take-out) standing six times, twice for (slightly) over a minute. ! happy, contented & People were all gone by 10:45 or so. * bed ~11:00; very groggy.
Most of the morning was burned up by meeting Colleen at Kaiser, waiting for her to get out of yet another CAT scan, and paying for her wheelchair transport. The good news is that in the afternoon in her PT session she stood up six times, twice for slightly over a minute. This makes me very happy.
The major insight of the afternoon was that it's not surprising I've been getting anxiety attacks on Wednesdays -- I'm an introvert. Colleen isn't. I've started tightening up when I pick up A because she's an extrovert, and a non-stop talker. Now that I understand the problem, I can handle it exactly the way I have been handling it, by retreating to the office or some other room for most of the evening, and dealing with a limited number of people at a time.
This also explains why I don't like to sing on Wednesdays, unless there are people there who really want to listen and pay attention. I can noodle, because that's something I can retreat to.
Went out to Jasmine with pocketnaomi (we would have had cflute as well, but she was exhausted after going shopping with A and having to hit 4 different stores in order to get everything). A nice, relaxing evening; we brought back take-out for cflute and Colleen.