what to write?
I know i need to update but i don't know what to write. so i guess i'll just start typing and see where i end up.
I'll start by saying what's been going on lately.
My class has started at VSU and it's a royal pain. On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday my schedule consists of: Wake up at 7:30, be in the office at 8:15, leave for valdosta at 10:15, go to class until 1, grab lunch, be back at the office between 2:30 and 3:00 and work till 5:30. I didn't mind at first, but the schedule is really starting to take a toll on me. I've asked for the day off tommorow just so i can catch my breath. I feel like i've been running around like crazy for about a month now and i'm getting burned out.
I joke around with some of my friends that i've been bored for 18 years. Man it feels like it. Not just bored as in i don't have anything to do to pass the time away, but bored with alot of things. My job has already in a short month become routine and my days are even worse (see above paragraph). My weekends are sometimes relaxing but they go by way too fast. I feel i'm stuck in a rut all over again and I don't know how to get out of it.
I am a music major. I keep reminding myself this. I am a music major, so why am i in an accounting firm 40 hours a week and not practicing hardly at all. I should be practicing anywheres from 3+ hours a day. How much do i practice? I'm lucky if i get in an hour. This job is killing me from the outside in. I don't work out anymore, I haven't played racquetball, one of my favorite things to do, in god knows how long, and my horn technique is dying a little bit every day. It's going to be hell getting it back when i finally do start practicing alot.
I know that i need the money badly. I'm almost in a situation where i can't afford college if i don't make this money. But is it worth losing everything i'm working for over? Part of me says quit the job and focus on your music. Part of me says you need to keep working so you can pay for your college in order to learn more about music. I just don't know what to do. I hope i find the answer soon because the semester will be here before i know it and my horn teacher is going to be furious with me. I let her down bad last semester and i feel rotton about it. I promised myself i was going to practice as much as i could over the summer and shock her when i came back. What have i done? Gotton closer to letting her down again. I hate it when i don't exceed someone's expectation. I hate it worse when i know i could do better. I just hope this settles out soon. I'm tired of being unsure. I just want there to be another time where everything makes sense.
I'll start by saying what's been going on lately.
My class has started at VSU and it's a royal pain. On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday my schedule consists of: Wake up at 7:30, be in the office at 8:15, leave for valdosta at 10:15, go to class until 1, grab lunch, be back at the office between 2:30 and 3:00 and work till 5:30. I didn't mind at first, but the schedule is really starting to take a toll on me. I've asked for the day off tommorow just so i can catch my breath. I feel like i've been running around like crazy for about a month now and i'm getting burned out.
I joke around with some of my friends that i've been bored for 18 years. Man it feels like it. Not just bored as in i don't have anything to do to pass the time away, but bored with alot of things. My job has already in a short month become routine and my days are even worse (see above paragraph). My weekends are sometimes relaxing but they go by way too fast. I feel i'm stuck in a rut all over again and I don't know how to get out of it.
I am a music major. I keep reminding myself this. I am a music major, so why am i in an accounting firm 40 hours a week and not practicing hardly at all. I should be practicing anywheres from 3+ hours a day. How much do i practice? I'm lucky if i get in an hour. This job is killing me from the outside in. I don't work out anymore, I haven't played racquetball, one of my favorite things to do, in god knows how long, and my horn technique is dying a little bit every day. It's going to be hell getting it back when i finally do start practicing alot.
I know that i need the money badly. I'm almost in a situation where i can't afford college if i don't make this money. But is it worth losing everything i'm working for over? Part of me says quit the job and focus on your music. Part of me says you need to keep working so you can pay for your college in order to learn more about music. I just don't know what to do. I hope i find the answer soon because the semester will be here before i know it and my horn teacher is going to be furious with me. I let her down bad last semester and i feel rotton about it. I promised myself i was going to practice as much as i could over the summer and shock her when i came back. What have i done? Gotton closer to letting her down again. I hate it when i don't exceed someone's expectation. I hate it worse when i know i could do better. I just hope this settles out soon. I'm tired of being unsure. I just want there to be another time where everything makes sense.