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[mcsqueaks]

I am writing a screenplay.

this idea for a story has been rolling around my head for ages and I can't help but put in down on paper

i truly think it's original, and i don't want to give too much away.

It's a thriller about obsession, murder, incest, rage, racial tension. based in philadelphia and arizona.

so that is that.

Anyway i am bored out of my head.  i want to write this thing and bang it out...but i have no encouragement to continue at this very moment.  it will hit me eventually.

it's been a restless weekend...not a relaxing one that i wanted it to be....im sex deprived bored and unfullfilled

everyone around me is getting acting jobs

not big ones, but experience and work

it bothers me and it doesn't bother me...because i am leaving zhang sah in a year or so and i will pursue my career in new york

but it kills me to not do it. act.  i can't stand not practicing and learning and building experience.

i want to scream at the top my lungs and this thing is the best place to do it

i love dealing with myself...its so much fun