secrets post no.11

Jan 09, 2006 23:53


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#14 7_times_over January 10 2006, 18:42:40 UTC
#14 - wow. That brought up a lot of emotions in me. You put into words exactly how I feel, thank you so much. I understand completely as, all though I don’t self harm, I have struggled in the past with my self-confidence, my view on myself and things like to the point where I could barely leave the house. I was terrified to go to school, and was depressed a lot of the time. And even now, (I am a lot better and I am being completely honest when I say it is down to the band and their views and attitudes which I kinda adopted onto myself), when I feel really low and I think about suicide, I cant help but feel I am disappointing them, even though they don’t even know me. I know that to them I am an anonymous fan, a bit of profit in their pockets from a couple of CD sales, but in some ways I feel like I would be going against what they, I dunno, 'preach' if I start to think about suicide, and if I get to that point again. And I guess, yeah, they saved me. And not in that 'THIS BAND SAVED MY LIFE!!' kinda way, I mean in the way that their attitudes that I followed made me realise that it’s not the right way. And that things do get better. I know they can. And they will for you too.

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